Always Learning
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Even though I have been out to every one, including my parents, deep down inside I really hate that I am not straight. My friends ask me why I am depressed, and I tell them it is because my parents disapprove of my sexuality. But the truth is, they never brought up the subject after I came out to them a few years ago. Yes they criticized it, and said being gay was wrong. But then they just kept on going with life as if nothing ever happened. Ever since coming out to my parents, I have just been feeling empty. I heard so many stories about how coming is supposed to be a good thing and it makes you feel better. Yet, here I am years later and still full of self loathing. I know it is wrong, but for some reason I just can't let go of that homophobia. No matter how much I mingle with my gay friends, and go to gay events, deep down I still feel awful about myself.