Not just you have an affinity for another culture or that you just wish you had been born in that culture. I'm referring to people who know in their heart that they don't belong in the culture in which they were born, and have always known they were meant to be something else.
I'm an American, and Floridian, with European Spanish and Irish ancestry. Ever since I remember, though, I've been fascinated with Latin culture, Latin music and the Spanish language. I remember longing to live in Spain and be a part of that culture at a very young age.
I know in my heart that I belong in the latin world, and feel like an outsider in US culture. On the other hand, I was born here and I will always be looked upon as an outsider in the latin culture. Wherever I go, I feel like I don't belong.
I don't want to just enjoy the culture from the vantage point of an outsider. I feel like I was meant to be one of them. My Spanish is already perfect, and you can learn the dances, and travel to the various Spanish-speaking countries and I'm sure they'd welcome you... but at the end of the day, I don't belong in North Carolina. I'd give anything to live in a Latin country.
Furthermore I have always thought latino guys were awesome. I believe my friends when they say that it's possible a latin guy would notice me as a girlfriend... but I rarely see latin guys with white, American women and I worry that my chances are pretty slim.
What do you do if you don't belong anywhere?
