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lovemyguy26
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*sorry so long*? Please don't judge me our my bf. We know we are doing wrong. I just need to know for my own sanity.
We are close friends. I fell in love with him and started flirting extra hard. We have been honest with each other about some very personal things. I know he's a player and he's not been the greatest boyfriend to his previous relationships.
When we finally decided to get together, we agreed to a no strings attached relationship. He even said that we can't fall in love (too late for me by this point) and that if I ever did he would just walk away from our relationship. and nobody was to ever know about us as this would cause both of us some serious problems.
After we became friends with benifits I wrote him a note (I'd wrote him a few early on because we never can talk about our relationship or anything to personal because there is too much of a chance a coworker or one of our kids or spouses *yes we are both married* may overhear us talking).in this one note I told him, I loved him dearly. But I've never told him this in person. After that he asked me one time when we were in the heat of passion to tell him how much I liked him. I said I adored him enormously. Another time he told me he knows I love him and that he loves me like a friend (ouch). He also talks about us way in the future. He talks about his wife being old and having lots of health issues so he thinks she won't last many more years. And he also broke his biggest rule. He told his sister who he is very close to about us. Plus he tells me his wife is suspicious (but she always is anyway whether she has reason to be or not) because he stopped having sex with her. He's even accussed her of cheating on him and said he hired a private eye to follow her. That shut her up so she sounds suspicious to me too.
He's not romantic (he's just over sexed) but he gave me 3 things that belonged to his dad. The first thing he gave me was something that was very personal to him and made me promise never ever to give it up. He also made me promise that I would be buried with it. That no one else was ever to get it. I've been okay with our relationship just being sex buddies, but the more time we spend together the more confused I get by him.
I don't know what to think. If I ask him I don't know that he would tell me anything he hasn't already said. But I don't know if that would be the correct answer to his feelings either. I just want to know where we stand together. I don't ever expect us to be a couple and I don't ever expect that anyone else will know about us. I would be happy just to be secret lovers for the rest of our lives. I don't know that I would ever want anything more because I don't know that ii can trust him to be faithful to me.
We are close friends. I fell in love with him and started flirting extra hard. We have been honest with each other about some very personal things. I know he's a player and he's not been the greatest boyfriend to his previous relationships.
When we finally decided to get together, we agreed to a no strings attached relationship. He even said that we can't fall in love (too late for me by this point) and that if I ever did he would just walk away from our relationship. and nobody was to ever know about us as this would cause both of us some serious problems.
After we became friends with benifits I wrote him a note (I'd wrote him a few early on because we never can talk about our relationship or anything to personal because there is too much of a chance a coworker or one of our kids or spouses *yes we are both married* may overhear us talking).in this one note I told him, I loved him dearly. But I've never told him this in person. After that he asked me one time when we were in the heat of passion to tell him how much I liked him. I said I adored him enormously. Another time he told me he knows I love him and that he loves me like a friend (ouch). He also talks about us way in the future. He talks about his wife being old and having lots of health issues so he thinks she won't last many more years. And he also broke his biggest rule. He told his sister who he is very close to about us. Plus he tells me his wife is suspicious (but she always is anyway whether she has reason to be or not) because he stopped having sex with her. He's even accussed her of cheating on him and said he hired a private eye to follow her. That shut her up so she sounds suspicious to me too.
He's not romantic (he's just over sexed) but he gave me 3 things that belonged to his dad. The first thing he gave me was something that was very personal to him and made me promise never ever to give it up. He also made me promise that I would be buried with it. That no one else was ever to get it. I've been okay with our relationship just being sex buddies, but the more time we spend together the more confused I get by him.
I don't know what to think. If I ask him I don't know that he would tell me anything he hasn't already said. But I don't know if that would be the correct answer to his feelings either. I just want to know where we stand together. I don't ever expect us to be a couple and I don't ever expect that anyone else will know about us. I would be happy just to be secret lovers for the rest of our lives. I don't know that I would ever want anything more because I don't know that ii can trust him to be faithful to me.