Okay, so this should need a lot of explanation.
I'm fairly certain that I have some type of depression, I have every single symptom.
I also think I have social anxiety disorder, or something like that. I've taken taken numerous online tests and researched it a lot, and every site points to that. I get panic attacks. I'm not sure if I can say I get them frequently, but I get them..moderately, I guess?
I've also been a self harmer since I was about 11 years old. I'm 14 now, and I cannot stop. I've also had suicidal thoughts, and have actually planned out how I was going to commit suicide at one point.
I've talked to my mom about thinking that there was something wrong with me before, but I didn't say specifically other than I was really unhappy. She thought I was making it up. She told me that she would take me in to get checked out anyway, just in case, but she never did. She started ignoring the problem. Hasn't mentioned it since. It's been months.
She doesn't know about the self harm, she doesn't know about the anxiety. None of it. All I told her was that I thought there was something wrong with me and that I was unhappy.
I need some help with what to say when I bring it up again. Because I really want to be happy again.
I guess...I guess that's it.
I'm fairly certain that I have some type of depression, I have every single symptom.
I also think I have social anxiety disorder, or something like that. I've taken taken numerous online tests and researched it a lot, and every site points to that. I get panic attacks. I'm not sure if I can say I get them frequently, but I get them..moderately, I guess?
I've also been a self harmer since I was about 11 years old. I'm 14 now, and I cannot stop. I've also had suicidal thoughts, and have actually planned out how I was going to commit suicide at one point.
I've talked to my mom about thinking that there was something wrong with me before, but I didn't say specifically other than I was really unhappy. She thought I was making it up. She told me that she would take me in to get checked out anyway, just in case, but she never did. She started ignoring the problem. Hasn't mentioned it since. It's been months.
She doesn't know about the self harm, she doesn't know about the anxiety. None of it. All I told her was that I thought there was something wrong with me and that I was unhappy.
I need some help with what to say when I bring it up again. Because I really want to be happy again.
I guess...I guess that's it.