I'm 17 and I'm a college student. I feel like I'm playing a game of tug-of-war constantly. I have really low self esteem. I THINK that I'm pretty and get constant compliments and am skinny & in shape but I don't FEEL that way. My dad was in the army for 20 years and he has spoken down to me my entire childhood and constantly critisized me and called me a freak and weirdo.
On one end of the rope, I have guys complimenting me and telling me that I'm pretty, smart, intelligent, have a nice body, etc. and wanting to date me and kiss me and on the other end of the rope I have my dad calling me names and constantly putting me down and making me feel bad about myself.
It is a constant struggle.
How can I stop battling a game of tug-of-war?
On one end of the rope, I have guys complimenting me and telling me that I'm pretty, smart, intelligent, have a nice body, etc. and wanting to date me and kiss me and on the other end of the rope I have my dad calling me names and constantly putting me down and making me feel bad about myself.
It is a constant struggle.
How can I stop battling a game of tug-of-war?