well this guy, is actually my friend's boyfriend's brother. We already knew each other (as teens) before he became my boss (as adults). our workplace/office is in the same building as our residence. Yes, OUR residence. I didn't have a place to stay in after I have moved out. My friend, Richard, is in a relationship with my boss' brother (yes, they're gay, but that's not relevant here). Anyway, they have decided to move in together and they invited me to move in with them, so long as I take part in paying some bills. I couldn't afford to, because i didn't even have a job. Coincidentally, my friend's bf's brother (my boss) needed a web developer for his company and I happened to be a fresh graduate and very qualified for the position. I was spared from bills, because he was the one paying me.
The guy himself is weird, quiet, and was rumoured to be asexual. He hasn't been in any relationship at all, has barely a few friends, very introverted and surprisingly, a virgin. I wouldn't lie that he's an attractive male. Of course, I should set aside making advances to him, because he's my boss. I think it's ethical that way. But I couldn't help but fantasize about him. I admit to playing with myself a bit while answering his phone calls... whenever he's away from our home.
I got caught one afternoon by a co-worker. I have my clothes on, but my hand was clearly under the skirt. I was at the sofa, beside where some of my boss' framed pictures were. . However, i didn't know that my co-worker thought I was having phone sex with my boss.He confronted my friend, and asked whether I have a crush on my boss. My friend, Richard, said yes of course, because he had no clue what my the other person was asking it for. Soon, rumours about my "affair" with my boss started to spread like wildfire in my workplace. The fact that I was even sort of my boss' confidant didn't help. My boss knew about the rumour and didn't believe it. But he doesn't know that I really masturbated for him. I feel guilty that my boss is still in my side, despite his cold personality, when part of the story had an actual basis. He's handling the situation as professionally as possible, but he insists on cheering me up. He keeps on offering to take me out for dinner to talk, and sending me gifts to cheer me up - which makes things worse. Although I feel glad for him that he's already starting to care for another person, I'm filled with guilt in our budding relationship. It's too awkward. I already offered to move out, because living together triggers more gossiping among our colleagues.
So I admit that I did fancy him, but we certainly never had sex. I'm human, with desires... but I really never did it with him. I live in his place and work for him out of necessity.
The thought of possibly developing feelings for each other and being in a relationship, did cross my mind - but I wouldn't really risk ruining my image.
Are these rumours prompted by jealousy? or simply as another form of bullying? How can I get out of it? Should I move out? He insists that I should stay... so should I just run away to another place to escape from the situation altogether?
The guy himself is weird, quiet, and was rumoured to be asexual. He hasn't been in any relationship at all, has barely a few friends, very introverted and surprisingly, a virgin. I wouldn't lie that he's an attractive male. Of course, I should set aside making advances to him, because he's my boss. I think it's ethical that way. But I couldn't help but fantasize about him. I admit to playing with myself a bit while answering his phone calls... whenever he's away from our home.
I got caught one afternoon by a co-worker. I have my clothes on, but my hand was clearly under the skirt. I was at the sofa, beside where some of my boss' framed pictures were. . However, i didn't know that my co-worker thought I was having phone sex with my boss.He confronted my friend, and asked whether I have a crush on my boss. My friend, Richard, said yes of course, because he had no clue what my the other person was asking it for. Soon, rumours about my "affair" with my boss started to spread like wildfire in my workplace. The fact that I was even sort of my boss' confidant didn't help. My boss knew about the rumour and didn't believe it. But he doesn't know that I really masturbated for him. I feel guilty that my boss is still in my side, despite his cold personality, when part of the story had an actual basis. He's handling the situation as professionally as possible, but he insists on cheering me up. He keeps on offering to take me out for dinner to talk, and sending me gifts to cheer me up - which makes things worse. Although I feel glad for him that he's already starting to care for another person, I'm filled with guilt in our budding relationship. It's too awkward. I already offered to move out, because living together triggers more gossiping among our colleagues.
So I admit that I did fancy him, but we certainly never had sex. I'm human, with desires... but I really never did it with him. I live in his place and work for him out of necessity.
The thought of possibly developing feelings for each other and being in a relationship, did cross my mind - but I wouldn't really risk ruining my image.
Are these rumours prompted by jealousy? or simply as another form of bullying? How can I get out of it? Should I move out? He insists that I should stay... so should I just run away to another place to escape from the situation altogether?