i'm quite self contious, and i'm not a people person. i make friends easily, but i look at them and think NO, or i think YES. we have to thave things in common, to me the 'opposites attract' thing is bullshit. i hate talking on the phone, and i hate going on trains/buses by myself. i also hate taking things back to shops, like faulty items, i can't say anything. plus at school, if i ever feel ill i never go to the reception, as i have no idea what to say or how to say it, so i ask people who have gone home before what they say, but i can never bring myself to it.
i also worry ALOT. i always think about the past, and wether silly things would happen again. also i get soo paranoid.. if my friends read this, they would think i'm joking around cause i'm the loudest of my group.. but it's just other people, i hate thinking what they think of me.
also, no-one trusts me. i can't even trust myself. in the past month, i've dropped/lost £25. i dropped £10 today ( i literally just realised.) and qwhen things like this happen i feel to just break down and cry. i have no idea why. i have issues! big time!
i've also lost my keys, twice. i know shit happens but i just .. urgh, my life is so messed up.
it just occured to me that i should do something about it otherwise i'm not going to get anywhere
i also worry ALOT. i always think about the past, and wether silly things would happen again. also i get soo paranoid.. if my friends read this, they would think i'm joking around cause i'm the loudest of my group.. but it's just other people, i hate thinking what they think of me.
also, no-one trusts me. i can't even trust myself. in the past month, i've dropped/lost £25. i dropped £10 today ( i literally just realised.) and qwhen things like this happen i feel to just break down and cry. i have no idea why. i have issues! big time!
i've also lost my keys, twice. i know shit happens but i just .. urgh, my life is so messed up.
it just occured to me that i should do something about it otherwise i'm not going to get anywhere