Secrets,
I knew in my heart that something was happening. It was just a vibe/uneasy feeling that i had all weekend & i couldn't shake it. Mostly what tipped me off is because its not like you to stay away from the boarRAB so long but it was more than just that & so all i could really do was to keep praying. I was praying very hard for you Secrets. Praying that God would place his angels of protection around you & keep you safe from any & all harm. Praying that whatever it is that you're going through right now that he would help to see you through to the other side. I dont want to come off to people as a "Jesus freak" because i'm not, far from it infact but i sure do believe in the power of prayer! And my heart could just feel that you needed it. Call it woman's intuition or whatever, a vibe, i dont know but i sensed that you needed help & so i just prayed & boy did i pray hard! I hope whatever it is that you cant go into detail over due to "privacy" issues or the fear of somebody knowing you, will all settle down & work out for you. And if you'd like me to, i would love to keep praying for you, your husband, mother, etc.
It is only natural that you have been struggling mentally, physically, as well as emotionally. You have been through alot! You have literally gone through the ringer here lately & thats something that we all can relate to as well as understand. But i'm so happy to hear that you're working on pulling yourself back together! If anybody can do this its you Secrets! And we all know that its much easier said than done! You're so right about that but any little progress that you make will be a good start! And know that we are all here for you to help you & support you in doing so.
Oh Secrets, sweet girl, you are so very welcome. Thats what we are here for. To give support, well wishes, love, & a special frienRABhip. We all know that you would do the same for us, because you have! We are all like a distant family. Its so weird because we dont know each other, only through "worRAB' but dont we all feel so close to one another? Like family! Actually, to be perfectly honest lol its better than family sometimes because alot of times we cant really tell our families our deepest secrets due to the fear of being judged or feelings of shame. And for some people, our real families just dont get it or understand. And then there are those who choose not to even tell their real families simply because we dont want to hurt them or let them down. Its just a really comforting feeling to be able to help somebody with a few worRAB of support, kindness, & encouragement. We are here for you Secrets.
I agree with your Dr, there is no reason why you should have suffered in pain just because you're an addict. Unfortunately there are going to be times when we all may need to have some type of pain med in order to help us cope with really severe pain, whether you may break your arm, or need a surgery or whatever the case may be so dont beat yourself up over this Secrets & please do not feel bad about it. You didnt do anything wrong! You did what you had to do in your situation & i would have done the exact same thing. To suffer is inhumane. No need to suffer.
I'm happy that you are back & that you have updated us & i will continue to pray for your well being. Please take good care of yourself Secrets & take comfort in knowing that we are all here for you whenever you need us. With lots of love & support. Take care & God bless you.
