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L-TYROSINE from health store... will give you a boost , great for mental fatique. I swear by it..!

google it too, never just take someones advice, research, good luck!!

oh and vit b6 and b12...
 
Want to talk about comic relief...I left this post up and sat on the couch, wife decides to do online banking but not before reading the post. Dayum! I had to quickly walk into the kitchen and add water to the two empties. LOL... I told her it was a long time ago.

My goodness, I hate lying but this time, it wasn't too bad as I did include telling my doctor and never doing it again (and I meant it).

But yeah, Im thru one of the two days and I feel really good, aside from a lil sweating and a few extra yawns, I m pretty good to go.
 
Yeah, sux about my team, but they made a good run, and there's always next year! I'm a little anxious now, as I just had to call my psychiatrist who prescribes Klonapin for me. Normally, I would get a very small rx on a monthly basis, to take as needed. Don't have an ongoing anxiety problem other than what I'm going through with my detox. And I've found that, during these 2 weeks, I've needed to take it daily during the day (always a 1/2 at a time so I don't get zonked out during the day), and then needed a full dosage (for what I have, a full daily dosage is 1.5 mg) at night so I can get through the night and get some decent sleep. I had already gotten this month's refill prior to seeing him 2-3 weeks ago. So I just called his after hours #, having gone into detail about the detox with him when I last saw him, spelled it out, and asked if he can either call in a new refill for like 2 weeks to help me get over this hump better, or if there's something else he would suggest. I know people on Valium & Xanax. I know if taken modestly, those can be helpful meRAB. But in the past, when I've had any of that, I would immediately zonk out, so not really a good option for me. I also don't want to add any St. John's Wort to the mix until I know what's happening with the Klonapin, for obvious reasons. I wished I could have waited till tomorrow to talk to my doc, but with only enough to eek through today, I thought I should see if he can call it in today (wish me luck). Might also be good since I haven't been able to get myself out of the house on weekenRAB during this, don't seem to go out yet except on days when I have to. Oh, last thing, I know Klonapin is a drug people can and often do get addicted to. But I have been prescribed it for a few years now (ever since I dumped my ex bf lol), and never, not even a single time, overused or tried to get more/get it earlier than schedule. So while I know I need to be mindful not to use any drugs to replace the opiates, I think with this I have a good shot at just a temporary increase for the detox, then back to biz as usual :)
 
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR WARM WELCOME! Really need the support right now. I, too, have done the cold turkey thing, again, just when I ran out, and thank God this medical, gradual detox is so much better (though not at all a bed of roses lol). I actually have all the B vits, needed and took them for a long time, just stopped keeping up when I was in my full-blown addiction. And I so hear ya on the Immodium, but thankfully, I'm past that need now. I am back on my vits, but will take time to build back up in my system. And there's another thing I'm not sure will help, but posting in case it does. I've had a low immune system for awhile, and my doc told me to take IGG (immunoglobulin). It is made by Xymogen, but sadly, my insurance doesn't cover it, and you'd have to check your pharmacies to see who might carry it. Compounding pharmacies usually do. It is in capsule form, and while I'm not sure if the addiction worked to lower my immune system, I'm supposed to take them anyway, they're all natural, and maybe that will help kick my body back into function more quickly. I will keep posting, keep reading the help from others like you, and never forget how much hell detox is--hopefully that'll help to keep me on this road. Thanks again!
 
Hey! Grrrrrrrrr--may the Steelers face TOTAL, DEVASTATING DEFEAT!!! lol
But I did get up and do some laps, and planning to do a few more in a couple mins. So proud of you that you are holding off this morning! As for the cravings, I have a sneaking suspicion I'll battle those for a long, long time--maybe even for years. I wonder if long-term sobriety fools us into thinking we can handle the little sneak now and again. I know that, even in the short 2 weeks of my detox, I've often thought of how/where to get more opiates. The only thing that's kept me from trying is making myself think of & feel every bit of the hell this detox has been. I don't want to ever go through this again, don't feel strong enough now that I think I could do it. I know if the time comes when I have to, I will. But I just hope I can hold on to this feeling, this memory, as long as humanly possible, and that it will keep serving as a deterrent to using again. Also, in terms of the relapse part, I also remeraber when I quit smoking so many years ago. I had nearly 6 years without a single cigarette, after smoking since I was basically a tot lol. Then I got in with the wrong crowd at the local pub, and after a few drinks, it was, "lemme bum a drag." Then it was, "lemme bum a cpl drags." And so on and so forth, and in a matter or maybe a month or 2, I was buying cartons again. Addiction is one heck of a powerful thing, in all its forms. So as you've said in support of me, just gotta keep fighting it, every time it rears it's ugly head, and celebrate the victories, big & small. Have a great day today!
 
Ravensgirl,

Second go gave you great advice. Have you both read the first sticky thread in this forum? It's very informative and may help you both with even more tips. God bless, and I hope you both continue to post. There are a lot of supportive, wonderful people here. Good Luck! Roxy
 
Firstly, let me apologize for my late night rant. This is my first time trying to detox for real, and it is a very rapid program. I'm nearing the end of the main phase, and I was just in so much pain and got so scared, so didn't know what else to do but verbally vomit it here lol. I have taken in all the great help/advice given me here, and I continue to fight. As scared as I am, and I am so very scared as the days go by, I am determined to fight this, and never go through this again. So please accept my apology for that last post, and thanks to all!
 
one thing i did when i was going through withdrawals was , id get a few pills, just to have on my person. I felt that if I knew i had no more, then my mentality was oh shit im out of them, and anxiety would kick in!!! hardcore, but when i had a couple, I just didnt do them, but it helped my anxiety. kinda wierd, but it worked for me
 
So that's given you energy? I know you still have to work outside the home during you detox. I am fortunate enough to do contract work from home at the moment, and not on a project right now (thank God), so I can take time to do this fully. I also just found out my older brother and his wife are expecting a boy. Not that I would be any less excited were it a girl, just amazing how such happy news can help. Just as I was saying, the lack of energy is the single biggest issue I'm facing now. And I am truly, fully, committed to never taking another opiate if I can avoid it. Scary thing is, even my pain mgmt doc, knowing the nature of my ankle injury, said the odRAB I won't need them again post-surgery are slim to none, but suggested I let the surgeon know about my addiction, so we can more closely monitor my usage if/when I need another surgery. I feel a little odd saying this, given that you are so much more experienced and I am but the newbie, but I am so proud of you, and all you inspire in the rest of us in our struggle. It gives me strength to read your thoughts and keep fighting. Saturday will be 2 weeks since I went into detox, and luckily, as a rabid NFL & Ravens fan (obviously from my screen name) I look forward to Saturday afternoon, to both celebrate my detox milestone, but also to route for my boys. Let's hope it helps... :)
 
Corissa, I didn't know that methadone worked for pain as well. what kind of pain do you have and how much methadone do you take and do you have to go to a clinic to get it?
 
OK, so I walked, and walked & walked & walked, and it DID help--thank you (not sure I'll ever stop thanking you, so get used to it! lol), but my Ravens lost a close game. Normally, in the past, I'd be looking for something, ANYTHING, to get me over this (diehard fan). But what I realized is this--I won. I didn't crave after the loss, I took it hard but dealt with it (even with a sister-in-law who's a diehard Steelers fan and made sure to smacktalk me about it). So I won. I am still sober. I am still committed. I started Camomille tea (pardon the spelling error) as well as the walking, and I feel more sure I'll get through this, at least today. So to end this post, I will just add that I hope it's been a good day all around, and as always, we'll tackle tomorrow, well, tomorrow. Thanks again!
 
Hi guys!

As you know, I've been struggling with my detox too--the ups, the downs, the times it doesn't seem like I can do it on the rapid pill detox I was put on. I'm happy and grateful that today is a good day. Certainly last night was full of ups and downs, all the stuff you guys know so well and also struggle with. During the last 2 weeks as I've had to so drastically ween off, given how enormous my addiction was (is, I guess), I really thought of the methadone or even suboxone methoRAB. I am trying not to do that just yet, since in my case, I am so fearful that I would then have to go through this detox again. Didn't really agree with the doc going so drastically low, and for such a quick time, since he knew how many I was taking and how long I'd been doing so. But I am hopeful the opiates, being finally out of my system in terms of having any to take, will allow me to just go through the hell of the cravings, exhaustion, and well, all the other stuff you guys go through too. Each one of us is different, have been on different opiates, and I believe need to detox in the ways that work best for us. You've all taught me so much about that! Second Go, you particularly have been so helpful with info and support during this whole thing, and I thank you so much for that. And all those who've posted ideas to help deal with all the symptoms that still remain. So today is better than yesterday, at least for now, and I'm gonna take that blessing and run with it! lol
 
So it's early here, not yet even 6:30a.m., and we got blanketed with like an inch of snow, but worse, a good solid sheet of ice (always the worst). For the past couple weeks of my detox/withdrawal, I've been able to get up and move so incredibly little. Thanks to people here, I pushed myself to get up and do laps and stuff, even if just inside my house. Stairs are still hard with my ankle not being fully rehabbed from the last surgery, but flat surfaces will do just fine. And oddly enough (but a good thing I think), I've not been sleeping 12 hours a night for the past couple nights. So here I am this morning, finding myself up 3 hours before I'd planned, but not in absolute agony (maybe that light at the end of the tunnel of this is shining just a wee bit brighter?). I see the weather report, look outside at my covered car and walkway, and low & behold, I actually do something. I got up, out there, and both completely cleared off my car, but also salt/sanded my walkway. Right now I'm thoroughly exhausted, so who knows if I'll be trying to get that extra hour and a 1/2 of sleep I'd planned for. But I just felt like posting this, maybe arrogantly to give myself a pat on the back, but also to hopefully provide info and maybe a sliver of inspiration to anyone reading this, still struggling as I do with the lethargy, the aches, etc., etc. I've been on the rapid outpatient detox my pain doc put me on 2 weeks ago--can't believe it's actually already 2 weeks. And had no opiates for the last 5, going into 6 days today. Heaven knows if some magic pill fairy were to appear before me now, after all the "heavy lifting I just did," and offer me something, I'd probably be in trouble. But I can actually say i'd have to think long and hard about it, knowing it would only make me have to do this detox all over again. so i'll have some coffee, maybe see if i can get my body up to do another round of sidewalk salting, and we'll just take it one step at a time. As always, thanks beyond measure to all of you who've given me advice, information, support, etc. Makes all the difference in the world, at least for me, so I can't thank you enough, and I hope everyone has a really good, GOOD, day today! :)
 
hows today goin? dont be ashamed to say 'worse' if thats the case. were all here because we most likely have drug habits/addictions.

dont be worried about posting if you, for instance got more pills cause you couldnt handle the pain.

No one should ever try to sugar coat their posts here, honestly is important. The only one youre lying to is yourself (not saying you are, im just venting in general about the issue). I flubbed up the other day and did more than I had done the day before, but I journaled it as just that, I slipped, big deal. a lot of us are going to be here on this message board for a long time, withdrawals can go on for months/years.

im just sayin keep us posted, were interested in your progress, and every post might help someone else you just dont know, so keep em comin Ravensgirl!!!
 
Thank you both so much! In reading that plan/outline, not only did I learn a lot, but also felt safer and more optimistic that I have many of the staple items already at hand and in use. Wish I would have read prior to start of detox, as was the best recommendation, but better late than never, right? I'm finding it much easier to get through longer perioRAB of time at night asleep than during the day. I'm sure due to the more active brain while awake lol. Eating, especially on a regular daily basis, is still tough, but I plan to add more of the fruits & veggies recommended. I guess I've made it this far, and a week ago posting anything, sitting upright for that matter, woulda been almost if not impossible, so the worst is surely over. Just tweaking with the very little bit of opiate I still have via the detox regimen so that I am more covered during the day, less while I sleep, while still not upping the amount I'm allowed to take each day. Still so scared that, after it's all out of me (not even the last 1/2 pill a day for 3 days at the end), that things will still be very bad. But I keep telling myself, "one day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time." And btw, YOU GUYZ RULE!!! :)
 
think i may have clicked to post my last cpl replies to stuff i'd written, not the stuff you've posted, all of which I've read of course! just posted one a min ago, down below a bit, but i'll try to do better and keeping the thread moving in the right direction lol.
 
Ok...I'll be the first to come clean...Ive done more methadone than I should have. I now have to go an entire day today and friday without my "drink". I was able to stave off the cravings when I was a hardcore drug addict but now for some reason, I take more than I should.
 
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