Hi, it may not mean much to you but it does to me. Im a 20 year old guy that naturally looks like a girl, always have been. There was a time in my life that I did want to be a woman because no one thought I was good enough as a boy. I was always the gay kid even before I knew what gay was. My family said that there was nothing wrong with me when I acted much like a boy when I was younger. I finally grew into my shell and accepted in who I was and what I looked like, and I actually encourage myself to look like a girl. Yes I got picked on even more but in the end the look grew on me and it became who I am. Now that im 20, I can see my looks diminishing with time, and it upsets me. I can’t bear the thought of actually losing my identity. Transforming from a facially and vocally woman to a man. It may be hormones and in may be age. I do have a medical history of hormone problems and I do have a boob and wide set hip and so on like a woman but its all going away. I grew to love myself and fought for my self and for what? For all that hell and torture that I went through to fight with what I couldnt change, and now all of a sudden leaving me stranded. In all honesty I do not want to look like a man, I like being one but that’s it. I don’t feel like im a transsexual, or a drag queen, and I don’t get any sexual kicks out of it so im not a transvestite. What am I, that I hate the fact of losing my feminine looks to the brutish and disgusting features of men. Why will I switch from fight people off of me because I look like a girl, to fighting the very body of myself that changing from a girl.
I need help.
I need help.