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Well it has been almost 3 weeks and I am doing ok. Not near 100 percent, but doing much better than 2 weeks ago. I am still having lethargy and loss of appetite, but my anxiety has definitely settled down. I beleive alot of my anxiety had stemmed from the fact that I started smoking a year ago after 22 years of not smoking. Everything tied to the actual smoking and the mental and physical side effects of smoking caused me tremendous anxiety and stress.

I had stopped smoking a few days before I quit the opiates using the patch but on day 2 of being opiate free, I started up again. However that was only for 3 days and the anxiety was so bad, I stopped again. The patch always worked for me so I used it a week. Well last Saturday (the 6th) I put a patch on in the afternoon, and after 5 minutes, the room started spinning, I got massively weak and I projectile vomitted all over the place! I immediately took it off and that is the last of any nicotine I have had. I have zero desire to smoke or especially, put on another patch. My anxiety has decreased substantially since and I think alot of it was due to the smoking.

I switched the Ativan over to Valium. So at this point, it is the only substance I am taking. I am very aware of the danger of benzos and I have made that clear in other posts. Right now it is helping me at night and I am sleeping better and I am without the nighttime anxiety that I have suffered through for years. I am taking a very low dose. I have 5mgs. I break them in half, and then I chip off a small piece off that half and take the bigger piece. So I guestimate that i am taking between 1.50 and 2.0 mgs once a day at nighttime. I can't imagine this small dose will hurt me if I take it for just a few more nights to continue to stabilize.

What I really need to do is now focus on my recovery from the mental and physical side. I need to strengthen myself in both aspects. This has been my downfall before and it is imperative that I start working on it ASAP.
 
Wow, three weeks!! That's great, Music. I'm glad to hear you're doing well - it feels great eh?

You have a good outlook, that's for sure. You recognize what neeRAB to be done in order to further your recovery.

Just be sure to stay vigilante. This is a critical time, as the addict mind is still wanting the pills.

Congrats, Music. I admire your strength :)

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Congrats! The mental and emotional aspects of withdrawal are the worst part I think. I know i have posted this before but it really works--L-tyrosene 1500 to 2000 mg a day for a week or 2. Your mood will lift and the blahhhs will begin to go away.

I have been clean since 9/30/10, so that's 1 1/2 months for me, and believe me it gets better. I feel like normal.

I take valium at night. A long time ago, I was on xanax and switched over to valium as per the Ashton Method to taper slowly. I was taking 80 mg of valium a day and now am at 22 1/2. I taper 2.5 mg a month now. I can feel it. Chest pain, can't breathe. But not all the time though. Caffeine makes the symptoms worse.

I quit smoking for about 7 or 8 years and for some irrational reason started smoking again. I have been smoke free for over a year now except for 1 on July 4 and one on Labor Day. I'm not going to bum cigarettes anymore. I take Wellbutrin and that I think helped me quit. And I cut a straw in half and held it like a cigarette and took deep breaths with it. SounRAB kind of silly, but it worked for me because i kept holding my breath.

So we have a lot in common! I'm glad you posted and that you are on the road of happy destiny along with all us other recovering addicts. It gets better-- don't give up before the miracle happens.
 
well seeing yalls journey gives me hope. I am not emotionally dependent on oxycodone (I hope). I started taking pain meRAB 2 years ago and worked up to 120mg of oxycodone daily. The thing is I have found it easy to pop an extra pill if I feel achy or stressed or whatever. I think that I am feeling achy because my body wants an increase of this drug.

To make it shorter lol, I am running very short on meRAB. I have 1 oxycodone 30 left and cant get anymore for a couple days. Since Friday I been cutting down. I have some lortab10s to help me. although i cant tell i take them. i am not taking more than a few a day. it has to be better than 120 of oxycodone.
 
Okay, my necks is super killing me! I want to get up and do something. I took a lortab. have been taking 1 every 4 to 6 hours. I am totally out of my oxys. i get them today though. I think I am going to try to taper down to half my dose. i just need something for the pain. it is excruiating. i have taken a 600mg ibuprofen and tylenol. only the lortab worked. it just takes the burning and stinging away. I wonder if i should just talk to my md about switching. I am afraid if he thinks i have a problem he will just cut me off period. Does anyone know if lortab are less addictive than oxys if you take them the way they are prescribed?
 
CONGRATS MUSIC!!!!

I am so proud of you! You have been an amazing fighter and I am so beyond impressed by your strength!

Thanks for posting an update! You will be in my T&P's...

Many blessings to you!
 
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