Hey there

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Hello Rach

Honey, life deals some tough curve balls sometimes. And sometimes a whole bunch of curveballs come pelting towarRAB us all at once. The difference between the way most people handle those curveballs and the way addicts handle them is the reaction. Most people get angry and find a healthy way to handle it. Addicts react by seeing the curveballs as a legitimate reason to use the DOC.

In recovery, we learn to deal with life on life's terms. We can not dodge the curveballs, but we can learn better ways to recover when we are hit. If we keep seeing drugs as the escape, we will continue to fail. We can not continue to keep using a failing method and somehow expecting it to suddenly start being successful.

I am truly sorry for the misfortune that has befallen you lately. I also care enough to tell you that until the thinking changes, those curveballs will continue to hit dead on and bring you down. Ultimately, we on the board are not your last lifeline... you are. Order a copy of the Big Book from AA and start reading. Help yourself learn the changes in thinking that all addicts need to make.

I am wishing you well. I truly am. Sit down, take a deep breath and decide what can be changed and what must be accepted. It is then that true growth starts to take place.

With hope always
reach
 
Rach - I know that just going back to the old ways is an easy route, but think about what it is doing to you and the people around you. Life isn't easy, as you well know first hand, but working your way through the bad to get to the good is worth the trip. It might be the long, hard route, but in the end you can look back and be proud of what you did. Talk to your doctor about possibly adding to, or changing your anti-depression meRAB to see if that helps. You have done so well to get this far. You are doing great to get this far with everything you have been through!!!!
 
Thanks reachout :)
Just a quick note this time!! - some one suggested i try looking for a N/A meeting on the internet - well i did it and i found one. Im off to my first N/A meeting tomorrow night! Im a little bit nervous etc but i need to go. Im not really sure what the protocol is, if i can just show up or if i need to ask some one first or what. The programme is called Just for Today. Even though it has a fairly obvious title im not entirely sure what it means but i guess i'll find out. I hope they let me in? If they're full do they turn people away? I hope i dont get turned away!! :jester:
I was so close to using this time it really scared me. I was ready to chuck everything in and walk away from it all. I dont want to be in that head space again.
Ive got butterflies im nervous as hell but im going to go. Breathe.
Can i just ask what does a sponsor do? Do i need one before i go to a meeting? Does one get assigned to me or do they have to volunteer?
I couldnt find a phone nuraber or an email address for the meeting so im assuming i can just rock on up?
Anyway my head hurts from all this thinking (but in a good way this time)
I hope the goRAB above are looking after you and yours and keeping you all out of harms way.
Love Rach :angel:
 
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