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musicman3
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I hope everyone is doing well, now I need some encouragement. I posted my story in January so I wil just do a quick refresher. I had an on and off addiction of oxy/hydro of 60-80 mgs a day for about 10 years. I got sick of it and went to detox in January and was placed on subutex. I started at 6mgs a day and quickly went down to 2mgs a day with no issues. I came home wth a 3 day supply of subutex. I was fine after they ran out but about 7 days later I had some withdrawals. I decided to see an addiction doctor and got back on it while I sorted out the issues in my life.
I have been on it since and only avg 1 to 1.25 mgs a day. I have not gone over 2mgs since my days at detox. Well yesterday I was down to my last dose. I decided when I was out I would stop. I took my last dose at 1am last night, which was 18 hours after my previous dose. I woke up this morning around 10 and 2 hours later I started to feel awful. Now I KNOW this can not be actually withdrawal as I have gone 12 hours plus many times without dosing with no issues whatsoever. I am attributing this to the strong power our minRAB can have. Perhaps its the fact that I know I have no more that is causing this intense anxiety. As this night progresses, I am feeling very withdrawly but again, the last time I stopped it took a week.
I guess I need some encouragement. I KNOW it gets better with time, but my mind is really playing tricks on me and the thought of the days to come is starting to get overwhelming. I do not sleep well on a good day and I know what is to come.
I have been on it since and only avg 1 to 1.25 mgs a day. I have not gone over 2mgs since my days at detox. Well yesterday I was down to my last dose. I decided when I was out I would stop. I took my last dose at 1am last night, which was 18 hours after my previous dose. I woke up this morning around 10 and 2 hours later I started to feel awful. Now I KNOW this can not be actually withdrawal as I have gone 12 hours plus many times without dosing with no issues whatsoever. I am attributing this to the strong power our minRAB can have. Perhaps its the fact that I know I have no more that is causing this intense anxiety. As this night progresses, I am feeling very withdrawly but again, the last time I stopped it took a week.
I guess I need some encouragement. I KNOW it gets better with time, but my mind is really playing tricks on me and the thought of the days to come is starting to get overwhelming. I do not sleep well on a good day and I know what is to come.