Here I go again

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Hello! I've recently had a setback in my battle with depression. For the past 2 years, I haven't gone to therapy and have done very well, overall. I've been on Cyrabalta for 2 years, which has helped. I made an appointment today to return to therapy and since have felt that someone is standing on my chest or has a pillow over my mouth. I don't want to have to go to therapy again. To share my story for the "umpteenth" time, feeling like I'm starting from scratch. Part of my anxiety today is that I'm going into Manhattan, on my own, to meet a friend for drinks. I've never gone in by myself. Not sure why it's scaring me so much, as I've been in the city many times. I want the feeling of "I can't catch my breath" to go away.
 
i am so sorry to hear that :-( if i were you i would get back to counseling as soon as possible- why torture yourself when you know help is available? it sucks to think about it returning but it's wonderful to know there is an answer- i am presently in my 3rd week of no anxiety or panic attacks for the first time in a year and i am soooooo happy but i also know at any given moment- BAM- right back into the same old pattern- i pray my happiness continues but if it doesn't i will fight back and you should do the same- never give up-
 
I am sorry to hear about this too! Unfortunately, there isn't always an answer for WHY we feel anxious. I find that it can happen randomly, and other times there may be an underlying reason. Definitely don't be afraid to talk to a therapist. They are there to help! I am sure just going back after not seeing one for so long makes you anxious and stressed. It will all be okay! I bet once you go, you will feel a bit better. We all have our ups and downs, but just think about how far you've come and think of this as something to help you even more! Maybe your therapist can help you think of anything really is (deep down inside) making you nervous about this trip to the city, or if there is anything you can do to make it easier for you. I used to see a counselor in training who was VERY helpful. Intead of just listening to me talk, I'd ask her for advice and things I can do to feel better. She was awesome! Good luck with everything and don't give up!
 
I'm sorry to hear you are feeling bad too. Could your hormones or thyroid be off a little? Sometimes medications can have side effects like that. Even cysts can make you feel bad. Do you have a good endocrinologist? GlanRAB are key to so much. I hope you keep up with your therapy too, everything you go through you learn from. Good luck!
 
Thank you for your responses! I have my appointment today and I just want to cry. My heart feels like it's in my throat. I always have these racing thoughts of how I want my life to be different but fear and anxiety stop me. I just want to cry! Something has to give!
 
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