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Man oh man have I missed you guys! I am sorry to have not been around a lot lately! It has given me a lot of feelings of guilt because I was given so much help in my time of need and I was not there for some of you when you needed it the most!

Well, I am here now and I look forward to getting to know some of you who are new since I took my hiatus and catching up with my old buddies!

Life has thrown some curve balls for me.... I don't want to go into too much detail to keep my anonymous status but my Father is now living with us in our small home and our family has been completely flipped upside down. It's very sad and I have taken it very hard!

The hubby and I are still trying for baby #1 with no luck yet but I know it's out of my hanRAB and in GoRAB and that is a comfort! Other than that.... not a ton else is new. Work has been VERY busy this last month because everyone here has been on vacation but ME!

I care for you all very much and I hope this message finRAB you all with peace in your heart and sobriety on your mind!
XOXOXOX
 
We're glad you're back. Over the 6 months that I have been on this board, I've seen people come and then suddenly disappear and I just wonder how they are doing and what happened to them. Some, unfortunately, I know, some ended up going the wrong way and headed back on their drug, others you just don't know why. But, I'm glad you are back and can give us some of your excellent knowledge again.

I know how life can really stab you in the back and then laugh in your face. It ain't been no picnic in my life - we've had some serious challenges throw in our face recently, as well. We're dealing with a whole new set of issues right now, but have a plan to get through them (or, I think I have a plan). But, after a long talk with myself and figure out a new direction, I'm back in the game. That's all we can to is re-evaluate our dynamically changing life and create a new plan to course our way through it.

I know that you are a very resilient and resourceful person and that a few challenges will only make you stronger. I hope that it all works out well for you. Good Luck!
 
Thanks Denon!

Your worRAB are always appreciated!!!! I hope everything you have going on in your life resolves itself too!

You are right.... it's not easy but we can make it thru whatever it is we have to. We have been thru hell and back already....

I am so ready for this work day to be over..... less than 2 hours left!! WOOOHOOOO!

Thank you again for your kind worRAB! You are the best and it's has been great chatting with you buddy!
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Heya Secrets

Good to see you.

Sorry to hear that life is being rugged on you of late. We need to always remeraber that there is balance, though. While you deal with the hard stuff, make sure to keep inventory of the good things going on. The good can be hard to see when we are down, but it is always there. Sobriety will not allow us to hide from the painful things, but it dopes allow us the straight thinking to deal with them.

Things are going well for me. Spent the day with the grandchildren yesterday and it was just so great. Tiring, but great. Smiles. Life goes on and it is good to wake up each day and wonder what the day will bring rather than dreading the day.

Again, really good to see you.

Hugs
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Secrets, sorry to hear about the recent stressors in your life....I too have the "elderly parent" situation and may have a major change in my life as well. The most important thing is that we don't let these curveballs throw us off the "straight-and-narrow". Geez, it was so easy to down a pill during a stressful situation, wasn't it....but NO MORE!!! You are doing so well and sound so positive. And through it all, still taking the time to help those of us who are on the path behind you. Truly an inspiration...keep up the good work and thanks for all your support.
 
Thanks you guys!

The support means so very much to me! You really have no idea! I tell you... life just keeps throwing..

So over the weekend I spoke to my Mom whom most of you know I go visit monthly and she is truly my best friend... anyways... She was just in tears, I guess my Grandfather (whom she takes care of) is doing terrible! (he has had several strokes over this last summer) It doesn't seem he will have much longer to live and it just broke my heart into pieces to hear my Mother crying over the phone about the fear of losing her parent. It made me so sad... I swear, my heart could feel her pain and I physically hurt while talking to her and after I got off the phone... I stayed strong while on the phone with her to be her rock as best as I could.... To support her... to try and calm and ease her mind.... but when we hung up, I was like a 10 year old little girl again sobbing in my back yard for her. I hurt so badly for her, the pain I felt was unexplainable! I am sure to most of you that sounRAB really weird but it's the truth and I had never experienced that on such a level before that it was actually shocking and shook me the rest of the night. I took this friday off of work so I could go there and be with her, she neeRAB some support and someone to help cheer her :wave: I will come up with something!

So, between that and watching my Fathers entire life change.... It's been so hard. Obviously, my parents divorced a long time ago... I was 6 to be exact but to watch them both struggle so hard at the same time is really hurting me... Believe me, I am trying to focus on the positive but I am just so sensitive to what they are both going thru that I can't help but hurt. It's making every part of my life more difficult. It's hard because it makes me want to just go right back into being a "user" again even though I know that is a road I just can't go near! It would be an easy excuse though but I see it as what it is.... an excuse and I am stronger than that!

Anyways..... This has turned into a full fledge novel. Whoever made it this darn far deserves a dang metal!!!! Thank you for letting me getting it off my chest! It does help because everytime I talk about it in real life it reduces me to tears and I just can't keep crying! It's like I have so many emotions and they are all hitting me at once.... UGH!

Well, may this post find you all at peace with your sobriety or with strength to make the leap towarRAB it!
XOXOXOX
 
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