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I am new on hear but I have been using pain meRAB for a little over a year. There has not been a day go by in this time that I have not took atleast 5 pills. My husband and family have no idea of this. I am ready to stop. When I think about all the money I have spent it just makes me sick. I have taken some today and I have 9 left but my plan is to wake up in the morning and refuse to take any. I wont to stop, but I am so scared of going threw the wd. I have small children and It is almost impossible for me to be in the bed sick. I have been researching on hear and other sites trying to prepare myself for what is to come. I am wondering if it is going to be as bad on me since I take up to 7 a day when I know people who take 35 are more a day. I don't want to get to that point, I wont to stop. I know it would be easier if I could talk to my husband about it and he would be understanding but I know he will not understand and would probally even divorce me if he new, just another reason to stop. I guess what I need to know is what am I up for and how long will it last. Please any advise would be greatly appreaciated.
 
Hi! What are you taking? And what is the mg? The withdrawal depenRAB on the med. and the mg. Going cold turkey on any narcotic med. you will get wd's. Not saying it can't be done.Theres a few different ways,one would be to lower your dose every day,for ex. you said you take five,well, then the next day or two,go to four and so on.I can tell you this dixie,you came to the right place.
 
Hi, I usually take 10mg loratab are vicodin, just what ever I have. Some times I take 2 at a time but never more than 2. I took 1 10mg this morning and I am so ready to take another one but I am trying to hold off as long as I possibly can. Thanks for any advise, I really need it.
 
I think to start the zoloft now will not do much good, you need to get a lot of it in your system (meaning taking it as prescribed for a few weeks). I take clonazepam on an as needed basis. Personally, I don't find it addicting, but I'm sure that some have found it to be.
 
Hi, I was recently where you were. I took a small amount compared to others here (it was about 10 5/500 hydro) and have 3 small children at home. One day I had enough and just stopped. It wasn't fun, but it wassn't as bad as it was for others.

When you decide on your quit day (probably when you run out) then try to stay positive and realize that you are not only doing this for yourself but for your kiRAB. The only symptoms I had were restless legs at night, which made it hard to get sleep, I took hylanRAB leg cramp pills for that; I had some chills and achiness, but it was nothing more than having a mild case of the flu.

There are some horror stories on here, but I think that if you remain focused on not taking the pills and resolve each morning not to take a pill then you will do great! I did have others that disagreed with me, but it worked, so that's all that I can say about that.

The hardest part for me is the mental aspect. My kiRAB are 5, 2, and 1 and require a lot of stimulation/activity. It will take awhile after coming down from the pills to get yourself back to a level where you can interact with them like you did on pills. The pills give a false sense of energy and it takes a long time to get that energy back. If you find yourself getting short and snappy (especially with the kiRAB) you may want to check with your doc to see if he can prescribe something like alprazolam to be taken on an as needed basis. It helps when you get it in a real crappy mood.

This board can be very helpful and there are MANY success stories. I believe in you and know that you can do this if you really want to.

Mags
 
Welcome dixiedoll!

I am so glad you decided to join us! So how are you doing? I remeraber when it was time to quit and it scared me to death! I thought I COULDN'T get thru a day without my "secret" pills that I was soooo addicted to. I remeraber feeling all alone because NO ONE in my life knew or knows about the battle I fought then and am still fighting today! No one but my frienRAB on here who to be honest have been my life line.. There are so many people here that have gone before us and have had success and I look up to them so much! This place is supportive and loving!!! Stick around and let us help you thru this!

Going thru w/d with small children will probably be very difficult but others have done it and come out on the other side of this all the better! I remeraber how differently I thought months ago and I really feel like the FOG is finally starting to clear so please know... IT WILL GET BETTER.. if you let it. There were times I was so angry and depressed and anxious but those feelings will pass and them come back and pass again.. Sure there I times I still struggle but I can tell you that it's much better now than what is was when I first quit.

So..... I hope you are doing good! Let us know! You will be in my thoughts and prayers!
~Secrets
 
Hi Secrets, thanks for the support. It really means alot to me. I am doing ok. I was going to try to tapper down but thats just not working for me. If I have them in my posession it seems like I have to take them. I have one pill left and thats it. I am so ready to end this fight. That is exactly what it feels like, just a constant fight with my mind. My concious tells me not to take it but its like my mind just can't agree with it. I think I am just going to have to go cold tutkey. I think it would be so much easier if I had someone I could talk to about it, I am constantly coming on hear and other boarRAB reading other peoples stories and that does give me hope. The biggest thing that scares me other than the wd is the fact that I know I am going to have another surgery on my ear. I had one back in Septeraber and it is like a 2 part surgery, they have to go back in and finish the second part. I am woried that I go threw all these wd and everything just to go right back on them. The first surgery was not very painful at all, and honestly I would have been fine just taking some over the counter pain releive but of course he prescribed vicodins and I waited a day and told him they were not helping so he prescribed percocets. I am just in a total world wind. I soo want to stop this, not just for my own health but for my children and my husband. I am going to be completly out today and have no money to get any more so now is my time to cold turkey. If any one has any advise are would like to share there story with me I will be so grateful. Thanks
 
Hi Mags thanks for the advise. I have already caught myself getting snappy today. I keep coming back on hear reading stories of sucess trying to keep my hope up. The med that you suggested asking my Dr. about what is that? My Dr. had put me on zoloft and kolapins but I have not been taking it. I was worried about taking it with the pain meRAB so I just quite taking it. I have a refill of the zoloft I am thinking of getting it and the kolapins I can probally call him on Monday and get him to call me in a refill but I was told that it is habbit forming as well so I'm not sure about it either. Honestly I have been getting the script for about a year now but I have not ever took it. I always traded it for pain pills. I know that it is wrong and I wish I never done it. Just another reason I want to stop. I do not want to be short and snappy with my kiRAB and family so any advise I would greatly love. Thanks for your advise. I was thinking of taking a pill and came hear instead so thanks alot.
 
Hey Again,

Well, I know exactly what you mean by a constant fight... That is exactly what it is.. A BATTLE.. None of us "want" to take pills... We unfortunetly, have become addicted... I have gone cold turkey a couple times.. (NEVER BY CHOICE) I always ran out early and could not get them filled early even though I of course tried anything I could too... I even went to the ER once and faked an ailment and they ended up really finding something wrong... Nothing serious but I thought I really lucked out there... Anyway.. I faked it because I was in severe w/d and was not ready to face it yet... When I finally was ready I tapered down.. Looking back.. I don't know how I tapered either because I was NEVER good with pill management. I was always running out early and it was such a huge part of my life trying to figure out ways to get more... I didn't know anyone and still don't (thankfully) that sells them illegally... The only time I got pills was from a Dr. or sometimes from my Mom when I ran out which of course I came up with some random story to tell her why I couldn't get them from the Dr.. Like.. (he left on vacation and "forgot" to fill my rx) of course she would feel bad and hand hers over... The guilt I feel about that is overwhelming... It's my Mother.. My best friend and I took advantage of her trust and love.. all because of a pill. Well, that is all over.... I am clean and seeing more clear everyday.. I know you can be too. The road ahead is going to be terrible (at first) but there is a light waiting for you at the end.. STAY STRONG and hang around here.. We will help in any way we can.

You will be in my thoughts as you start your journey! Be proud of yourself! It's a big step!
~Secrets
 
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