This is a dilemma I have been wrestling with since childhood. Every bit of internet research has led me around in circles, and I am no closer to solving the mystery.
I've had partners of both sexes, and derived pleasure from each, but in different ways -- my most recent male experience, I should note, was fantastic, in contrast to another recent experience I've had with two other women, which was quite frankly a bit grueling, although I did eventually finish.
Pictures of women/shemales very much excite me, while only some pictures of men do. When physically in the presence of a naked/partially naked woman however, I am not excited and find making myself erect to be quite difficult. The idea of being romantic with a woman is not at all exciting to me, but to share intimacy with a male usually is -- provided I can identify a man I find interesting. I LOVE effeminate, well-groomed gay men.
My sexuality seems to fluctuate. Some days I walk around and find more women attractive, sometimes more men. My mind seems to inadvertently shift between what it wants to look at day-by-day.
What's going on here? The only societal fear I have is explaining to anybody that I'm "bi". I feel that it is something many hetero and homosexual people both look down upon. If I can isolate one sexuality over the other, there will always be a group to support me.
I should also note that I take an SSRI anti-depressant, was raised on Ritalin (I now use Vyvanse), and am a self-diagnosed schizoid. Any insights will be valuable -- thank you so so much in advance.
I've had partners of both sexes, and derived pleasure from each, but in different ways -- my most recent male experience, I should note, was fantastic, in contrast to another recent experience I've had with two other women, which was quite frankly a bit grueling, although I did eventually finish.
Pictures of women/shemales very much excite me, while only some pictures of men do. When physically in the presence of a naked/partially naked woman however, I am not excited and find making myself erect to be quite difficult. The idea of being romantic with a woman is not at all exciting to me, but to share intimacy with a male usually is -- provided I can identify a man I find interesting. I LOVE effeminate, well-groomed gay men.
My sexuality seems to fluctuate. Some days I walk around and find more women attractive, sometimes more men. My mind seems to inadvertently shift between what it wants to look at day-by-day.
What's going on here? The only societal fear I have is explaining to anybody that I'm "bi". I feel that it is something many hetero and homosexual people both look down upon. If I can isolate one sexuality over the other, there will always be a group to support me.
I should also note that I take an SSRI anti-depressant, was raised on Ritalin (I now use Vyvanse), and am a self-diagnosed schizoid. Any insights will be valuable -- thank you so so much in advance.