Growing up blows

Askia V

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Sup to anyone who remembers me.

Ok, so basically, i got out of military school and thought everything would be smoothe sailing. I graduated at 16, so i had no high school, no bills no worries. Here i am at 17, the love of my life Joanie tells me that shes moving out of state this saturday, and i went from working on weekends to working 47 hours a week.

Everything in growing up seemed to flip me upside down. From not having school or work, and having someone i could always see next to me through life, to having to work 47 hours a week, and the girl of my life leaving.

Also i just moved to a new house, and the new house needs major remodeling, i launched a small online hosting business, and my time is gone, my bodys beaten and sore, and i have no free time. Every second i get that i get to relax is just another false thought where i remember i have to wash clothes for work, or i have to call one of my clients and tell him something. Or i have to call Joanie and tell her how much i dont want her to go.


Everyday that ive been stressing, i just think back to a few years ago, where it wasnt anything but friends hanging out everyday after school having normal fun going out to the beach every weekend, now to sitting here wishing i was 15 again, to relive some of the things i miss the most.

I also went from being immature for my age, to being overly mature, thinking about things i shouldnt have to think about at my age (I.E. Saving money, and actually settling down and getting married)


I just wish i could go back to a life of the past, one that i cant relive, and one that has obviously been blown away with the wind.


Life sucks

~10 Stars.
 
If it serves as any consolation, my life is great. Women, money, power I have it all.
Oh shit, my overactive imagination. I dont have any of those. you're right life sucks. Atleast you are independent.
 
For the programming course I am taking now I have to get up at 6:00, I walk two miles to the metro ride for an hour while a lot of fat people take up my fill my seat with their side fat, take a shuttle bus then walk half a mile just to be mocked by people who live near by for an hour and a half.
 
Stars, it sucks now but if you keep going like you are, by the time you're 25 you'll be one of those over acheiving bastards that rents out air time to sell your "system" to lazy fuckers that think they can get it without working.

Yeah, being an adult is hard. No matter how much is in the bank it's never enough. And no matter what you get done, there is always someone or something that is still demanding your time.

But it's also worth it. To see the savings add up. To see your business flourish or to see your house really come together. At some point you'll stop and look around and realize "Hey, I have ACCOMPLISHED something here." It might not be a huge accomplishment but it's at least worth something to you.
 
It seems the answer im seeking can only come from time. And time is one of those things i dont like spending. Also i just realized im up for 18-20 hours, only getting 4 hours of sleep a day/night. wherever i can fit it in.
 
Well, I really don't know how you feel.. I just failed a class that could of got me into a good college. I just basically set my life's course, and it's not looking good. My point being, like DG said, everything you do counts towards your future. Little things like calling your girlfriend everyday to tell her you love her or working over time. It will pay off sooner or later and that's the hope you should have. Whether its marrying the girl of your dreams or having a good retirement..
 
Hey DG been awhile...


I guess everything will work out, but this walk is starting to kill me in the morning. Im also even short on clothes to wear most of the time (I havent went clothes shopping since before military school, last march)


Everythings just crumbling around me. Im trying to stand through it but i just want to quit work and move to NC with Joanie, but it wouldnt ever work like that...
 
I'll try to spare you the details, but this is only the beginning of the suckitude for you. It gets worse.... until you die. So hold onto the good moments, and live every day like it may be your last.
 
Normally my responces to posts have a nice negative or disturbing streak to them. This one will be no different. I will pass on to you the advice given to me by my first supervisor in the Navy (and he told me this almost everyday for over a year.

"Don't worry it only gets worse".

It may be a fucked way of looking at things but at least he never lied to me. Things always in some way did get worse and I was never dissapointed. If shit did get better it was a pleasent supprise.

So I guess what I am trying to say is hang in there. Be ready for life to throw curve balls without mercy. Also be ready to enjoy the moments of calm and serenity that life offers.
 
I don't want to grow up. I would stay 17 my entire life if I could. But I couldn't do that and now I'm 19. (20 in Sept.) You have more than I do right now. I have a part time job clearing people's garbage from tables. I'm in debt from college and I still have 4 more years to go. I don't have a place of my own so I live at home with my 3 siblings, 2 dogs, my parents, and my bf. Growing up sucks, but growing up and not having the means to even buy yourself a car really sucks. Enjoy what you have.
 
Hey, 10 Stars!!! Welcome back, fucker!

Anywho, I just got out of military school myself, and indeed...it does suck seeing your life basically come to an end. Or that's the way it seems at least. I've taken it upon myself to join the Marine Corps, and it's scary to think that I'm about to start up my career. Before military school I was a mess. I woke up at 12 most days and went to sleep around 5. I never did any school work and I always ignored whatever my mom told me to do. All I can say is good luck. =/

BTW, what was the name of the military school you went to?
 
This thread kind of makes me appreciate my own "life" now.

See, you all talk about how you had friends to hang out with and all that fun stuff to waste time one, or better just spend time on. Well, I don't have friends. I get up everyday at 6 in the morning. I travel one hour in a car to school. I stay in school until 5 pm and then I go home to do homework and sleep. I try to get out and exercise and all that fun stuff but I still feel like I am in a cage. I rarely get to have any fun and when I do it is at my older brother's expense because he has the time for a job and I don't. I can't drive because I don't have a license or a permit for that matter. Finally, every relationship I have tried to have with a girl has taken a quick plunge to the toilet because I don't have any means of seeing the girl or doing anything with her that would not bore her to death.

Fortunately for me though all this school work is paying off and when I get my business degree I will start to roll in the cash with the proper business plan. I have the smarts to do it all; I just need the legal documents.
 
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