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Shanequa

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Great. My stepdad called me names, I called names back. He rushed through my mom to hit me in the face and while in the process, he got my mom in the face. So, I punched him. I'm being kicked out. It's not that I can do anything or my mom can. Every hour or two he comes back and tries to fight me again. My mom won't let him.

My girlfriend broke up me cause of a mistake I made months ago and tried to forget. I've tried everything to convince her that I'll never hurt her in anyway. I've been planning my future around her. Everything I do is for her and it all crumbled around me. I hate myself. So much. She's coming to help me through my problems but she's made it painfully clear that she doesn't want me to even hug her. Or tell her that I love her.

Both of these happened in the time period of less than 12 hours.

I was still trying to decide rather to go to the community college or go to the Air Force. As soon as I get a ride, I'm going to the Air Force recruiting place and leaving.

There is nothing for me here anymore. I ruined it all. I had all this good stuff going, my life was on track and I fucked it all up somehow. I was doing my best...
 
I saw some advice in a different thread that you should read.

Do what is best for YOU and nobody else. I understand that life is throwing you a curve ball, but i just know you will come out on top of this!

You can call the recruiter and he will come get you. You don't have to wait on a ride from someone else. If that is the route you are going, you need to make plans on what your going to do till you ship out. It could take up to a year pending on your MOS (JOB). Go for something that YOU want to do!! NOT THE NEAREST SHIP DATE!!! I did that and got fuct!

Take a few steps back and look at it all from the outside. See all of your options. Don't just jump into things you might regret. After all you will have to cut your hair off if you join the military.

PS: your stepdad is not worth going to jail over. Call the cops and report the shit!!!!!
 
Everything will be all right. You can still hang onto your life plan, just plan it around yourself rather than others. I'm sorry your step dad hit you in the face, thats pretty fucked. It is a lot to deal with in a short frame of time. In your current circumstance, I would suggest the air force. They'll put a roof over your head until you can figure shit out at least, plus then you can still go to school later.
 
Silk and DG both gave good advice.

But remember, don't rush things, be sure you are doing it for yourself and not because it just seems so shitty now. :hug2:
 
Since you were doing your best, don't beat yourself up over the decisions that you made. Learn from your experiences and move forward with what you've learned in mind.

I know that feeling (that everything is falling apart and you need to act quickly to save your skin) but try to relax. Clear, level-headed thinking will keep you from making a hasty decision that you might soon regret.
 
I kinda understand what you're going through with your dad. Mine never hit me or anything, but he got drunk a lot and argued. The part about him coming back every couple hours reminds me of how my dad was with my mom, and after that, with me. I think you'll find a better life away from him. Just need to find a place where you can stay, and work around it.

Also, I agree with Silk wholeheartedly, in that you should never live for someone else. You gotta live for you, man. 'Cus even the people you trust the most can end up fucking you over in the end. I can understand how strong your feelings are for her though. You just, gotta move on. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Life's all about screwing up, making mistakes, and learning. It sucks, but life will eventually become instinctual because of that, so don't worry. It's just a hard time you're going through.

I hope all works out for you. Effort is everything, IMO. It builds character, success, friendship, and love.
 
My best friend joined the army under similar circumstances and regrets it to this day. He's done one tour in Afgan. and one in Iraq and will be out in a year. He'll be better for it in the end though. I guess what I'm saying is what others are saying on here: Makes sure it's something you really want to do before you join up, and also don't live your life for anyone other than yourself.
 
Thanks, guys. It's terrible when random people on the internet makes me feel better than the people that supposedly care about me. I've not giving up easily on Hayley (my ex). I refuse. My step dad on the other hand...is a lost cause. I've tried to be civil. I've tried to be respectable but any respect I build up for him, he throws right out the window every time he treats me like shit. I kind of hurt my own feelings because I promised myself I wouldn't hit him...again. I promised myself that I wouldn't go as low as him and call names. I wanted to let him call me names and let him hit me and let him look like a jackass. I just have a bad temper and lost my cool. My fault or not, I'm paying for it.

I'm a wreck, maaan. :happysad:
 
If she acted like she forgave you for whatever it was that you did, and now she's punishing you AGAIN for it, she's a bitch and she can go to hell. Don't waste any more time on her.

Speaking from experience on that. I can't offer advice on anything else. Chin up, my friend.
 
Epidemic, good luck. Having to start all over is hard, but it will eventually make you a better person, like it or not, because the more experience you have with the world, the wiser you get. I hope you pick something in the military not on the front lines, and I did the same thing, join the Army and flee life with nowhere to go and nobody cared. It was shit, it was great, it was. I don't begrudge all my military time, it helped me to be who I am.

You should know, anything the civilian world can do, the military can do worse. Just so's you know.

Best of Luck. You can live through it. You can grow.
 
I wouldn't say that's terrible, but the same goes for me. People on this site treat me better than people I've met in person.

Might just be they want to end up molesting us though. :confused:
 
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