That's where you differ from me. I'm not saying that you're wrong but maybe you and your e-friends set your relationships up on a whole different point of view as I did. Maybe with you guys it was based on personal interest solelyNo, I have just learned it's better to lie in the bed I made. I was humbled and shamed, which anyone who is banned should be. Are you saying you have done nothing at all to be ashamed of?
I truly feel that I have nothing to be ashemed of from what I was accused of at all..
It's a big relief to get away from it all. No more "following the pack" like you say; I have nothing to lose and nothing to gain. I can just enjoy filesharing for what it is in it's purest sense. Downloading files because I want them and not because they will raise my buffer; my rep is shit now so i dont have to worry about my ep3nis; and i can stick to making real friends and not the fake ones you'll find at trackers.
I still have internet friends to this day that i'm close with and have helped me out tromendously into becoming a better person (and I'm not talking BT related wise)
I've spent more hours chatting with Cabalo in Msn about life and he has given me more advice Life-related than I could remember
Chatting with Cinephilia has been an unforgettful experience as well. This guy has introduced me to a new way of thinking. He's a very wise guy and knows a lot about culture, cinematography, music etc..
Still to this day when I'm in the internet I look around the Kg forums to find a meaningful movie, or grab a book and read about old culture and philosphy etc..
I was never into doing stuff like this before I met any of these guys
Another guy that I still know to this day is a Tze. He's from Singapore and a very cool and open minded person. He has left very strong impressions on me and is truly a role model
And last but not least my new friend megabyteme.. I just got to know this guy and he's already reached out to me a million times offering help. It even got to the point where I asked him help for personal problems..and I just met him thats the funny part
My point is that, having friends is a very good thing in both, RL and internet. You can learn a lot from these BT guys..
And Don't give up on something that you used to believe in just because you were hurt a few times.. I know you had good times with your friends before this whole thing happened and probably miss talking to most of them