I have ups and downs in my life. Right now its going down hill for me. School- did a fucking assignemnt that i couldnt bear to do. Like im good at school except when it goes down to presentations. Anyway i was sure i did a good reasearch and all that crap but it happened fucking again, whole class got bored and i couldnt do nothing about it. For fucks sake if you talk about serious things teenagers dont want to hear then how, how you make those fuckheads listen. Like its not my fault i got a shitty topic and im not gonna be acting like a clown, im going to talk presentably and show how things really are. And whoohoo, teacher said that best i can get is mid 60s cuz i even got her bored. Ok fuck that i can make up on other shit. But now im running out of money that i cant even take my loved one anywhere. Some bad income management there and there and now i rely on my friend stealing food from Hy & Zels for me. I also find out that bunch of other guys like the girl that im in love with and she spends more time with them because of my shitty schedule so u cant see her as mucha as i would like to, so im in a tough fight and outnumbered. And i got an infection again, so im sitting on antibiotics. Those shitty pills make me feel half dead, when im on those i cant even make it to school because im literally like a zombie. Head is heavy, dizzyness. Dont wash dishes dont feed my cat, cant do like nothing, dont even start on homework. And soon i can have an tempreture from an infection so might have to go to hospital to cut it out but then i dont have any money to buy painkillers :sad: . I had those infections like 5 times and doctors just telling me to wait it out because thers nothing they can do. After each antibiotic period i loose shape and feel like utter crap. And now it happened on the rise of my sucess and had to fuck it all up 
. Now i took 1 pill so i cant do nothing much besides smoking and sleeping. It just feels that there is some force out there that always fucks everything up for me. It lets me get close to what i want and then whaaaam, im right where i started and falls are fucking painfull, especially if i got so far. I dont want to loose any hope with this girl, i dont want to loose shape, i dont want to east stolen food, i dont wnt to lend money for gas, i dont want to fall back in school but its just going to it. Fuck it, i cant even get drunk because my kidneys will fall off if i mix alcohol with that shitty antibiotic. Or actually you know..... fuck the kidneys :mfinger:
. Now i took 1 pill so i cant do nothing much besides smoking and sleeping. It just feels that there is some force out there that always fucks everything up for me. It lets me get close to what i want and then whaaaam, im right where i started and falls are fucking painfull, especially if i got so far. I dont want to loose any hope with this girl, i dont want to loose shape, i dont want to east stolen food, i dont wnt to lend money for gas, i dont want to fall back in school but its just going to it. Fuck it, i cant even get drunk because my kidneys will fall off if i mix alcohol with that shitty antibiotic. Or actually you know..... fuck the kidneys :mfinger: