Fuckin' shit.

LondonFalls

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I got in a bit of fucking fender bender today. I was on a two way street. At a stop sign at a one way, which was going from left to right. I'm 95% sure I checked for traffic. Proceeded straight through intersection, only to see a truck right beside me when right in the middle of the intersection.

I smashed the throttle to the floor, hoping to get out of the way. Heard tires skidding, was almost out of the way, and then the back end of my car skidded to the side.

Yeah, I somehow missed seeing a Dodge pickup coming down the street. Not sure if he was speeding or not, or if I just didn't see him because of a vehicle parked along the street. Talk about feeling majorly stupid, idiotic, and shitty.

Turned around in a lot just up the street, and stopped. The other guy had turned to follow, and stopped also. We exchanged info.

Thankfully, there was next to no damage. The mid-nineties Dodge pickup had a front bumper which was now badly dented on the left side, otherwise it was OK. My car, an '88 Mercury Grand Marquis, was barely touched, with the only damage being that the left end of the rear bumper was slightly bent, and the left taillight was cracked, although not smashed or shattered.

I'm still not sure how the fuck I didn't see the truck. Whether it was that he was speeding and there was a vehicle parked along the street, blocking him from my view for a second, or the fact that I was slightly distracted for a second by other occupants of the vehicle. I don't usually miss stuff like that.

Thankfully, I did have the sense to slam the throttle to the floor when I saw him when (I was) right in the middle of the intersection. Otherwise it would have been a direct T-bone. I'd probably have been in the hospital for a bit. But still, it sucked. I'd just had a full year of totally clean driving. No speeding tickets, no accidents (two so far, one of which was my fault), no DUI's, etc.

At least, with the insurance system in Saskatchewan, I'll only get a one time "fine" from the insurance company, and then my insurance will be pretty much back to normal. Still, with the point system (based on driving record), I just dropped myself further down the scale. I was at either -10 or -12 points, so now I'll probably be at about -12 or -15 points. That means a slightly higher insurance premium, but thankfully it doesn't jump major high like other places.

Stupid thing is...well, here's some background to the situation.
I got my paycheck on Monday. When I got home from work today, I had a text on my phone from a local acquaintance asking if I was going to the city today. I replied yes. With further communication, it appeared that she would be the only person coming along. Thing is, she's a bit of a lier and a bitch (not to mention a pothead), and she ended up convincing me to let someone else come along. I didn't want this to happen in the first place, but I guess I was too much of a pushover.

So I was a little pissed off, and actually happened to be on the way to one of her stops when this accident happened. What a coincidence. If she wouldn't have been along (or her friend), this shit wouldn't have happened.

All of this brought me to getting drunk tonight. And smoking. I had just decided just over a week ago to quit smoking, and to try to quit getting drunk. Yeah. I was smoke-free for ten days, and tonight I've had about five smokes. And enough beer to get me feeling slightly drunk, considering I was quite tired in the first place.

Anyways, now I'm sayin' that I'm not smoking unless I'm drunk or getting drunk. I can stick to that, I'm sure. At the same time I'm going to attempt to keep from getting drunk very often. Still drink a little, but not get drunk.

So yeah that's my day. It kinda sucked. And that's not even saying anything about work. The evening was good, though! Drinking and hangin' with a couple friends.

Sometimes life just plain sucks.

(If parts of this post, or complete post, do not make sense, it is because I am under the influence of alcohol.)
 
Hey at least you're ok. About the smoking thing; you're always going to have stress in your life, so using stress as an excuse to pick it up is just what it sounds like, an excuse. After you get your nerves calmed, go ahead and quit again, just know that what you said is true; Sometimes life just plain sucks.
 
Wow I just reread my post. I didn't remember saying all that, but I'm almost surprised that I made as much sense as I did!

It's all about how we handle the stress. When I'm sober, I can handle stress quite well. I've noticed since I quit smoking that I'll be harder on people, but at the same time I haven't really snapped yet. Partially because I keep that from happening. It's all about controlling yourself.

Today when I woke up, I put my tobacco and tubes back in the cupboard, out of sight. I don't plan on smoking again unless I get drunk again. And only when I'm drunk...I quite often have one or two beer in the evening before I go to bed, but I won't have a smoke then.

As for the girl, well, I had been getting pissed off at her already. It seems I never hear from her or see her unless she wants a ride to town or something. So she's out. She texted me today already, and I simply haven't replied. I don't need "friends" like her.
 
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