Fuck my childhood, fuck child abuse, it fucking sucks ass

[real_shalom]

That's terrible. However, you and everyone with Muscular Dystrophy have support, from people you don't even know, like me. I live in Hawaii, and I'm part of my schools JROTC program. I'm on the Saber team, and we did two performances at Muscular Dystrophy Association meetings, one of which I was able to attend. I was proud to be there, dressed up in Class A's, and I know it was for a worthy cause.


As for myself... I've been diagnosed with ADHD and depression, both of which I take medication for. In 7th grade I was so miserable that I tried to commit suicide, and damn near succeeded. I got myself landed in the hospital for two days, and I've been seeing psychiatrists ever since. Since then I've improved a lot, but when I get depressed sometimes I wish I had succeeded. The thing is, when I get depressed often it's for no reason at all, but I just start feeling shitty. I guess my depression comes from my birthmother, who also had depression (I was adopted at age 4, but luckily I didn't move through a bunch of foster homes. The mom who adopted me has taken care of me since I was 7 months old).

I have a sister that's really messed up, though... she was also adopted (She's one of three sisters, two of who are not adopted), but her biological mother was even worse off than mine... hers was on crack and shit like that, and she suffers for it today. She's practically uncontrollable, and it's truly difficult to have to live with her sometimes. I really should treat her better because it's not her fault, but I really don't heed that and I treat her like crap.

Well, my train of thought just crashed. Toodles.

 

[liver]

Hey man, you're not alone, in fact, you're far from it. All around the world there are thousands of people ranging from children to adults who are going through, or trying to reconcile with what they as well as you have gone through. Rants like your's bring tears to my eyes and I truly hope that things get better for all those in our position. Hey, maybe we'll even see eachother sometime in the future.

 

[In love with a soldier]

I was diagnosed with Asperger's in fourth grade, but the stupid fucking doctor misdiagnosed me and we didn't find out until over a year afterward. I swear to God, I'll never take drugs for anything anymore. They put me on who-fucking-knows-what for all that time and I just became a fucking nutjob. When I finally got off the shit, I found that I'd lost a friend sometime during my "Asperger's days" and all the girls thought I was the strangest fuck on the planet. I rebuilt my rep for the longest time, and just as things were looking good for me, fucking Hurricane Katrina hits and I have to move. Now I'm in Baton Rouge, a town that trys too hard to be a city, and I have to start all over again building a rep with THESE people, who are the most ignorant kids I've ever laid eyes upon. Honestly, everyone here is either ignorant, reckless, or a slut.

EDIT: When I say the doc misdiagnosed me, I don't mean he mistaked Asperger's for something else, I mean I don't have anything fucking wrong with me.