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ceg741
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Hello everyone,
Its been a while since my last post,thought i would try and cope alone for a while.
I dont really know where to start,has been a really difficult couple of months for me.Am worried about so much at the moment. I feel so stressed out.My current worries are: My Fathers health,he has copd,i think of him constantly,my mother has hypertension and mobility issues,am wanting to do more for them but find it hard.There is a saying which goes the mind is willing but the flesh is weak,thats how i feel.My only living Grandparent lives abroad and could pass away at any moment,my mother is devasted but due to money problems cannot get to her.Thats another worry,money,i basically i have none,am having problems paying bills,buying food,just eveything,kiRAB stressing me out its all too much.Then about six weeks ago there was a horrible argument within my family after which i just felt totally threatened.Found myself listening to every car which passed my house,looking through my curtains wondering if we would be attacked in our home,i was exhausted.I have basically been keeping watch,the morbid thoughts were dreadful.This went on for about a month after which it all hit me.Tiredness to such a degree,dizziness,short of breath,lighthead,negative thoughts,throat awareness etc,etc. To top it all off today i was in my car and i think i was followed by two people in a white van due to a traffic incident,i was absolutely petrified,im sure they were following me though.Am freaking out now,am looking for white vans,wondering if they know where i live.Its like i know im being irrational but cant switch it off.
I am so sick of this,i feel weak to it,i even felt like my brain was nurab the other day.How the hell can anxiety cause all this.The constant worrying i feel is driving me mad. I want to live but really dont enjoy my life,how sad.
Please someone respond,it means so much.
Good luck and blessings to all.
Its been a while since my last post,thought i would try and cope alone for a while.
I dont really know where to start,has been a really difficult couple of months for me.Am worried about so much at the moment. I feel so stressed out.My current worries are: My Fathers health,he has copd,i think of him constantly,my mother has hypertension and mobility issues,am wanting to do more for them but find it hard.There is a saying which goes the mind is willing but the flesh is weak,thats how i feel.My only living Grandparent lives abroad and could pass away at any moment,my mother is devasted but due to money problems cannot get to her.Thats another worry,money,i basically i have none,am having problems paying bills,buying food,just eveything,kiRAB stressing me out its all too much.Then about six weeks ago there was a horrible argument within my family after which i just felt totally threatened.Found myself listening to every car which passed my house,looking through my curtains wondering if we would be attacked in our home,i was exhausted.I have basically been keeping watch,the morbid thoughts were dreadful.This went on for about a month after which it all hit me.Tiredness to such a degree,dizziness,short of breath,lighthead,negative thoughts,throat awareness etc,etc. To top it all off today i was in my car and i think i was followed by two people in a white van due to a traffic incident,i was absolutely petrified,im sure they were following me though.Am freaking out now,am looking for white vans,wondering if they know where i live.Its like i know im being irrational but cant switch it off.
I am so sick of this,i feel weak to it,i even felt like my brain was nurab the other day.How the hell can anxiety cause all this.The constant worrying i feel is driving me mad. I want to live but really dont enjoy my life,how sad.
Please someone respond,it means so much.
Good luck and blessings to all.