Feeling the blahs...

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mazda626eshelp

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I'm undergoing a blah period. The things that bring me joy are just losing their edge vs. the things that are stupid in life. I've been trying to re-jazz myself, but it's going slowly. It's like I'm just bored with the world in general. My relationships are ok right now. Work sucks, but when doesn't it? Life itself seems to just be so damn empty. This is nothing new, I realize. I'm just posting it because I feel like venting a bit.

I'm really into games of all sorts, tabletop, PS2, computer all that jazz. They seem to be losing their ability to just make me zone out for a while. Maybe I'm just focusing too much on the mundane anymore. I used to read more, maybe I need to go back to that for a while?

I enjoy coming to WTF though, that hasn't dimmed in the slightest. I like the crowd around here, even if they get unruly. :tongue:

All in all I'm feeling not down... but numb. I hope it passes soon because it makes the crappy times seem like forever, and cuts into my good times.
 
I totally know how you feel. I'm totally numb. I look in the mirror and swear to God I don't have a reflection anymore. I think I've lost my soul. I'm a shell of a personality. But at least your relationships are pretty good. My boyfriend is the guy I've liked for over a year, and we're finally going out. And now, I'm moving to Virginia, and all he talks about is how he might break up with me because I'll probably find someone else. But, hell, after all the time's he's said he loves me, would he really do that? Because he knows that he's the only one I've ever wanted. So this has been keeping me up all night, every night. And he's out of town, so I can't call him or anything, and he doesn't come back for two weeks.

It feels like the only way I can zone out is through major bouts of violence, like endless hours of Counter Strike or fighting. Anything I can do to get my adrenaline up and spill some blood.
 
If you feel like everything is boring... or losing its edge... cant you always find something new to do? That would be my advice...

Whenever i feel bored... or most of the time, when i simply feel like it, i work out and that gets my pumped, as well as giving me something to do. Other than that i just listen to music or talk to friends, which im sure you do atm anyways.

Are there any interests youve wished for ages that you could pursue? Rock climbing? Scuba diving? Joining a sports team? Anything youve wanted to do but havnt for some reason or another, maybe now is the time to seriously have a look at it.

I think i remember from previous posts you saying you were very very short on time and struggled even to fit friends in half the time, sorry if ive got the wrong person, but maybe now you should be putting things you want to do on the top of your agenda, if only for a little while, to get your 'edge' back :)

Good luck, hope everything turns out awesome.
 
Yeah gummi, same guy. I do try to fit as much "fun" as possible into every single week, heck every single day. Sometimes I think I've overstayed this life, that slowly but surely it's draining me dry. Maybe it's just middle age madness, maybe it's the idea of doing this same thing for decades to come. I'm not sure. I do try new things as much as I can, and I'm never one of those guys to turn down doing something different, maybe even crazy. Maybe when I catch up on some damn sleep I'll be more energized?

I've slept 4 hours a day for the last 3 days, and I'm just tired. Still I never let being tired stop me, I'll party all day if I can even with little to no sleep.

Thanks for the replies, you guys are great.
 
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