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Alright so I have had what I have been told is Generalized anxiety disorder for about 4 years now..I have all the common symptoms...constant anxiety, feelings of doom and feelings of something not being right with me..thinking i'm going to die...also the body symptoms, nurabness,feeling like im going crazy....all kinRAB of chest pain and headaches, fevers, hot flashes...anyway I know i have all this and am quite aware of it all...some days are good and some are really bad..I am going on meRAB here soon...Anyway lately things have been pretty bad...the body pains have been crazy bad and even though some of the thoughts have subsided it has turned into more of an avoidance situation of certain things...last night I went out with my new girl of only a month or so and I started to get really hot in the face...my head,cheeks,neck were on fire! I didn't want to show it so I just played it off like nothing...then the anxious thoughts came in...oh no somethings wrong with me...what if i'm dying..and then it passed..then we were talking and I had this feeling of warmth going over my whole body in a bad way and like I wasn't really there..she asked if I was okay and said I looked flush..I just said I was fine...and last week the same thing happened to me so I always dont want to go out with her because i'm afraid something is going to happen to me or I am going to have a panic attack..( obviously I still go see her
she makes me happy)but...I'm so sick of all this..I try to stay positive...listen ot self help things...think good things..and it all just comes back like a wave of doom that I can't seem to escape...I just want to feel normal again for once...have an entire day where I just feel like a normal happy person..ahh anyone else go through this stuff...where you think it's gone then comes back at the worst times? maybe i'm just venting but I had too! anyway thanks for reading