OK, so first you should know that I don't have very many friends, never have. Secondly, I suffer from depression etc and have been in therapy since January. But IDK if it's doing any good...
Anyway, so I haven't talked to my friend, formerly bestie, formerly best friend, this girl a year younger than me, in like 3 weeks. And I get depressed about it because we used to talk every day. She promised me this wouldn't happen to us....see, because this happened before with my last "best friend." It hurt so much I did not want it to happen again, but sadly it looks like it is. Sometimes I feel like the problem is me, like I'm doing something wrong.
Honestly, I'm sick of feeling like $h!t all the time...being suicidal or so depressed that nobody wants to talk to me. Humans obviously like to hang around/talk to people who are actually happy with their lives, not someone who lives in the darkness of depression (like me).
The light at the end of the tunnel seems to be fading away, and I hate that.
Tips, suggestions on how I can make life worth living? Please understand that it is far more difficult for me to make friends than anything else. And I'm already bombarded with hobbies and activities to keep me from spending my spare time on suicide plans.
Anyway, so I haven't talked to my friend, formerly bestie, formerly best friend, this girl a year younger than me, in like 3 weeks. And I get depressed about it because we used to talk every day. She promised me this wouldn't happen to us....see, because this happened before with my last "best friend." It hurt so much I did not want it to happen again, but sadly it looks like it is. Sometimes I feel like the problem is me, like I'm doing something wrong.
Honestly, I'm sick of feeling like $h!t all the time...being suicidal or so depressed that nobody wants to talk to me. Humans obviously like to hang around/talk to people who are actually happy with their lives, not someone who lives in the darkness of depression (like me).
The light at the end of the tunnel seems to be fading away, and I hate that.
Tips, suggestions on how I can make life worth living? Please understand that it is far more difficult for me to make friends than anything else. And I'm already bombarded with hobbies and activities to keep me from spending my spare time on suicide plans.