I believe what i have is fear of intimacy. I'm not one to self diagnose but it seems right. Every relationship i'm in lasts about 3 months. After that 3 months, i start getting upset about everything from the big things to the small things that i loved in the beginning of the relationship. I read up on what i could find and i found "fear of intimacy" because i felt doomed to be alone forever and im not willing to accept that yet. Fear of intimacy is often spurred on by traumatic occurances in childhood. When i was 5 years old my father got released from prison and moved in. He beat us for years until we ran away and he eventually committed suicide. I have all the symptoms of fear of intimacy except it has nothing to do with my physical outlook on myself and im not scared of sex itself. Its more im scared to get committed or something. Idk i just really dont know. Getting desperate now bc i have a 4 month old daughter and me and her father are getting close again and i dont want the 3 month thing intervene this time. And no, i dont concentrate on this fact too much i just put it there for reference. Im not set on the failure of the relationship. I just want to be happy and no dont tell me when the right one shows up bc i cant imagine spending my life with anyone else. Just, after 3 months, the spark disappears out of nowhere and i get mad over the stupid stuff.