Now, when I say intimacy, I don't mean sex.
Anyway, I am 16 years old and I have noticed many strange things about my interactions with others.
In my culture, saying hi with people you know is usually with a cheek kiss, well I never kiss anyone's cheek, and I hate having people kiss my cheek.
Similar with hugs, I hate avoid them but once in a while it'll be someone's birthday and I
ll have to hug them, it'll be quite pathetic.
I have friend issues, I don't tell any of them how I really feel, sometimes I avoid them, and I always think they hate. And because of this, I feel like I have no true friends.
Now when it comes to my family, they know nothing about me, and I don't talk to them as much as I should. I lock myself in my room and listen to music.
Whenever I have a crush, I never know how to express it, I usually ignore the person. I have yet to date anyone.
No matter how much I liked this one person, I could not get myself to allow him to kiss me...Strange?
I feel like a complete loner. I want to attempt to change slowly, but I feel like if I do, people won't give me the time of day...I have become extremely depressed this year and I have major self esteem issues. Overall, I don't know how to control this! I'm predicting myself as an old crazy-single cat lady who talks to no one. I even think that no one would really care if I died, or came to my funeral! Its becoming so bad, I just want to give up! Also, I did not have a bad childhood, or get raped, etc.
Please help!
Anyway, I am 16 years old and I have noticed many strange things about my interactions with others.
In my culture, saying hi with people you know is usually with a cheek kiss, well I never kiss anyone's cheek, and I hate having people kiss my cheek.
Similar with hugs, I hate avoid them but once in a while it'll be someone's birthday and I
ll have to hug them, it'll be quite pathetic.
I have friend issues, I don't tell any of them how I really feel, sometimes I avoid them, and I always think they hate. And because of this, I feel like I have no true friends.
Now when it comes to my family, they know nothing about me, and I don't talk to them as much as I should. I lock myself in my room and listen to music.
Whenever I have a crush, I never know how to express it, I usually ignore the person. I have yet to date anyone.
No matter how much I liked this one person, I could not get myself to allow him to kiss me...Strange?
I feel like a complete loner. I want to attempt to change slowly, but I feel like if I do, people won't give me the time of day...I have become extremely depressed this year and I have major self esteem issues. Overall, I don't know how to control this! I'm predicting myself as an old crazy-single cat lady who talks to no one. I even think that no one would really care if I died, or came to my funeral! Its becoming so bad, I just want to give up! Also, I did not have a bad childhood, or get raped, etc.
Please help!