Ex loved me in bed, new bf is complaining, help!?

[Seashoreonsunset]

My ex still can´t get our sex off his mind. I would give him bj almost every time we had sex, and i did ride him quite often.

I have had some bad experiences with my new bf though and need help.
It seems to me that my bf often wants me to swallow and is a bit disappointed when i don´t want to. It went as far as i spitting it all out and feeling sick, thank god I did not through up. But I did this because I was afraid he would get disappointed if I didn´t.

Also it appears he has a too short foreskin string so it often tears. Once he was sleeping and I was watching a porno, and got turned on and started to suck him while he was sleeping and then wanted to ride him and he was awake then..problem is I contributed to it tearing again.. It actually teared often, now after being away from each other, it seems to have healed and we should not have any more problems (before we really didn´t give it time to heal, too anxious).

Anyway, I have been scared to ride him and also a little unmotivated by sucking him because I don´t want to have sperms in my mouth.

I recently got an sms where he said he wished I could ride and suck him more.

What should I do? I just didn´t want to hurt him, and now it´s my FAULT and I am bad in bed. And now i have to prove I am good...

It makes me so pissed off and unmotivated...what do I do?

 

[sports5089]

If your new bf is complainin screw him, you don't complain when u actually care about someone and swallowing aint a big deal all the girls that wouldnt for me tried it once and then admitted it wasnt as bad as they thought, you setting yourself up for failure by having this mental block of it. That skin shit idk what to say about that, and when u ride him keep it simple, up and down and occasionally roll your hips for him.