Daddyskaggs
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Or about to?
Just lately, I feel like trying to do the things I think are right aren't worth the trouble.
I could call "that one girl" that everyone has, the one that you dated a while ago but she's still not over it. That would alleviate a little of the mess I'm in. She came to see me and we were alone, it was just dark enough that the mood was perfect, the right song was playing. I really felt like I was about to go for it, even though I know it wouldn't be right.
I could drop out of school. I hate it. I feel like I'm not learning anything. I feel like I'm wasting my time. My mom randomly told me that she would understand if I dropped out for now. Well shit, then I might go for it!
I could quit my job. I have enough saved to cover my expenses for about a year (if I live super-frugally). My boss is a bitch, I either don't get enough hours or I get too many. I've had too many lately, and it's been fucking me up at school.
It goes on like that.
But, experience tells me that these things get better soon, when you're almost at that point, well, that's a sign that they've thrown you almost all they've got.
I swear, I'm building up some huge karmic reserves when it comes to dating. Shitty date after shitty date after shitty date, bullshit on top of bullshit. So I feel like pretty soon, I am going to cash in! I am going to get with some awesome girl. At least, that's all I can hope.
And, my first semester of college is almost over, which means I will be 1/8 of the way to a bachelor's degree! So I hate it but I see how soon it will be over, and I'll get into the GOOD classes soon.
Work is lame but I just finished a huge project that was eating up all my time. The only downside is that they want me to start publishing a newsletter with regularity, so I will have my hours busy again really soon.
Well, all this is just eating at me, and I wanted to get it out. Thanks.
Just lately, I feel like trying to do the things I think are right aren't worth the trouble.
I could call "that one girl" that everyone has, the one that you dated a while ago but she's still not over it. That would alleviate a little of the mess I'm in. She came to see me and we were alone, it was just dark enough that the mood was perfect, the right song was playing. I really felt like I was about to go for it, even though I know it wouldn't be right.
I could drop out of school. I hate it. I feel like I'm not learning anything. I feel like I'm wasting my time. My mom randomly told me that she would understand if I dropped out for now. Well shit, then I might go for it!
I could quit my job. I have enough saved to cover my expenses for about a year (if I live super-frugally). My boss is a bitch, I either don't get enough hours or I get too many. I've had too many lately, and it's been fucking me up at school.
It goes on like that.
But, experience tells me that these things get better soon, when you're almost at that point, well, that's a sign that they've thrown you almost all they've got.
I swear, I'm building up some huge karmic reserves when it comes to dating. Shitty date after shitty date after shitty date, bullshit on top of bullshit. So I feel like pretty soon, I am going to cash in! I am going to get with some awesome girl. At least, that's all I can hope.
And, my first semester of college is almost over, which means I will be 1/8 of the way to a bachelor's degree! So I hate it but I see how soon it will be over, and I'll get into the GOOD classes soon.
Work is lame but I just finished a huge project that was eating up all my time. The only downside is that they want me to start publishing a newsletter with regularity, so I will have my hours busy again really soon.
Well, all this is just eating at me, and I wanted to get it out. Thanks.