either die from w/d... or relapse????

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I don't know if I can handle this much longer. I am on day 1 of w/d/detox and I cannot hold still and I am totally miserable. Have taken baths and cannot stand to even sit in there really. How do I handle this? Someone help before I make the wrong choice!
 
Please, please be strong and hold on with every ounce of willpower you have. You can make it through this. Yes, you will be miserable for a while, but when you get to the end of this journey, it will have all been worth the effort.

During this process, you have to take it one day at a time. Sometimes one hour at a time. You didn't become addicted to your DOC overnight, so the withdraw & recovery won't happen overnight either.

Please know that you are worth this investment sweetie. You can do this, you can be strong, and you can recover and get back the person you truly are deep down inside.

Take care, and look for support wherever you can find it. Best wishes!!
 
i am not telling you to take drugs but to get through the really bad days i would take a xananx and drink 1 glass of red wine it helped me to relax and sleep only on the hardest nights though deffently not often stay strong
 
JMHIN, What drug were you in w/d from? I know they say that after the fourth day things get better, but I just wanted to know how it was for you. I take Ultram ER and I am afraid that the symptoms will last longer than with other opiates.
 
Hey livingalie,

Welcome, I hope this message finRAB you getting a little better as the moments pass..

I know what you are going thru and I know how bad it SUCKS! It was miserable and I don't wish it upon anyone!

As for how long this could last... Usually it does get better after day 4 but this is not an overnight process unfortunetly. However, it does depend on how much you were taking and for how long you were taking it I think. Usually after a week things will start to get much better. I know each day feels like it's 72 hours long. However, you CAN do this and we are here to support you. I have not taken what you are taking but when I tapered down I suffered thru every day of the 3 weeks. In the end it was worth it!

The restlessness I felt all over my body and the sleepless nights I thought would certainly drive me crazy but eventually it stopped as will yours. You have come this far please don't turn back.. You are worth it.

Reachout one of the merabers on this board told me something when I was going thru withdrawals that totally helped me!!! She said that every withdrawal symptom that I felt was actually a symptom of healing... When she said that to me... everytime my legs would kick uncontrollably I thought to myself... HEAL BODY HEAL... and it helped.. I knew it couldn't last forever and I know her telling me that got me thru some of my darkest moments.

Read as many posts as you can because it will keep your mind busy and it wil also help you understand you are not alone in this struggle and many before you have WON this battly and so can YOU!

I will pray for your strength and for you to be able to get some rest.

I will be thinking of you!
~Secrets
 
Livingalie Don't give up please, you can do it!!!! I have just gone through "suboxone" withdrawl and it hasn't been easy but I am almost through it. There are some posts here that have some things you can do. One person told me to eat bananas and drink V8 juice (potassium) for restless legs. I took hot baths several times a day and even in the night as I couldn't sleep. Someone else suggested some "leg cramps" liquid (oh yeah Hyland's leg cramp liquid) that you could probably get at the drug store. Do you have any medication to settle you down from your doctor? Are you working with your doctor? Mine gave me "Lorezepam" and it calmed me down a bit but he said don't take it all the time so I used it when I was desperate. What are you detoxing from? I would like to listen to your story. Mine is on here several times under "Suboxone withdrawl", chronic pain, insomnia. My name is Lyn (under Angel in Michigan). Just type those titles in the box up top under health boarRAB search and you can read several stories. We are all here for you. Please do not take anything, you will get through this. You have to have a very strong mind and keep that mind busy with things. I did all of my housework even though I didn't feel like it, I spent the day ironing at least 30 shirts for my husband. I had the radio up loud and sang and danced, I babysat my 6 month old granRABon, just to keep my mind off of things.

Please you are worth quitting. You don't need any of it!!!!! You will feel so much better about yourself. We are all here for you. Talk to us.

I am thinking about you, you can do it. Take care of yourself. I hope I have helped.

Lyn
 
Living......how are you feeling today? Yes each day will get better but it isn't an easy process and nobody is going to sugarcoat it for you. Keep your mind busy and you can get through it. I was just detoxed off of suboxone which I tapered down for months as I am in Chronic Pain and no longer wanted the opiates in me. It has been a big challenge but it is definitely worth it. We will live longer to see our children and grandchildren grow up and we will be proud of them and they will be proud of us.

You can do this. My thoughts are with you!!!!! Lyn in Michigan
 
Good Morning livingalie,

I hope this finRAB you doing a bit better today. I'm withdrawing from Vicodin - I took my last half of a pill on Monday and then quit cold turkey. Started the w/d symptoms on the road traveling (not smart, huh?) I will say that day three was quite possibly the worst. Getting through that day was a challenge...the nausea, the diarrhea, the pain in my joints - the tears. Coming out of it, and into day 4 though - I knew then that I could do it. Because there was NO way I could do another day 3 again, kwim?

My dad is a Morphine/Ultram addict. He has been on both for over 12 years now - he goes through hundreRAB of pills in the span of just 2 weeks. His body has become weak with the use of the pills - if he tried to quit now he would surely die (he's a mere 95lbs now) and bed ridden. He started on them after back surgery and then never could come off. I see what these pills have done to him and it sickens me...I was on the same path.

I know I'm rarabling, I'm sorry. It's just that you CAN do this. You just have to remeraber what they're doing to your body. You have to fight as hard as you can - even when you feel like there's no way that you can possibly do it. Each hour, each day, every moment is progress, don't forget that. Keep talking....we're here for support!!
 
It sucks...oh God does it SUCK but you CAN do this, you really can. I'm on day 5 and the first 3 days were rough but by day 4 it started getting better a little at a time. Know that you do have the strength in you.

Stay as busy as you can - I've been listening to my iPod, cleaning, dancing, writing, whatever it takes. I have 3 little girls and sometimes I would just look at them and knew that I HAD to do this, no matter how much it sucked.

I also started telling people I was close to - people who had no idea just a few days ago. It gave me the initiative to not give up for fear of disappointing them. It also helped to have that support system in place.

Don't give up. You CAN do this. I know it feels like you're dying NOW but in a few days it won't be as bad and you'll be able to look back and go I made it - I'm stronger than I knew.
 
hi all....

I just felt a need to post this. I am not an addict however, my son is. God Bless you and keep you. I read these post and just had to reply. I so hope you all can find the strength within you, and you all do have strength, to get through it. Not being an addict, I cannot fully relate but, after watching my son over a course of several years, I can somehwat relate. My son has od'd in the past and he is currently in prison. livingalie,,,,,God bless you sweetheart. FIND someone quick to talk to. You CAN do this. Pray to your Higher Power for help. HE will give you the strength you need. Trust in HIM.....please find someone to talk to. Do what it takes to get clean. You have that desire and you CAN do it. I will pray for you all....

LYNN
 
Hello everyone...thanks so much for all of the support in going thru this...you are all angels.

Today I am feeling okay. Not the best, not the worst. I am extremely tired feeling, and I am doing my best to just lie down and rest when I can. What makes me really anxious is feeling that things are going to get worse instead of better from here, and I just don't know what to expect.

So, now I am going on 39 hours with no Ultram at all, and the last two doses I took were 1/4 of my usual dose. I am pretty proud of myself for getting this far.

I just feel very weak and like I need to sit and rest all of the time, and that is not my personality. Does anyone know how long this feeling of weakness will last? I actually started a vitamin pack this morning that is supposed to give me an energy boost, and give me all of the essential vitamins and minerals that I should get in a day. Maybe that will help.

I walked on the treadmill a couple of days ago, and I'm going to try to give that a whirl again this afternoon/evening.

Again, thanks so much for caring. I am determined to beat this, and to take my life back.
 
Hello again!

WOw! You are doing so good! I am so proud of you for making it this far! It's not easy and I KNOW the pain and mental suffering that goes with this. You should be very proud of yourself.

To answer your questions about the weakness.. I think for everyone it's different but for me.. I seemed to be feeling really sluggish and weak for a couple of weeks after I quit. Also, be prepared for some depression to follow when the physical withdrawals stopped.. The mental ones started for me.. Now, that may not happen to you but for me and many others it did so it's just a heaRAB up so that if it does happen you don't have to wonder WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON NOW? After a while though the depression gets better and your mind will be more clear and alert. For me... I do still struggle with cravings everyday but I feel such pride for what I have accomplished that I usually try to focus on that and busy myself with the 1000 other things a person has to get done in a day... Or.. I post like crazy like I am doing now.. Talking about it seems to help me. The more I post.. the more I read.. The better I feel... I feel blessed to have others who know exactly what I have and am going thru.

Well, I seem to have written another one of my novels!! HAHA Just know you will be on my mind and in my heart and I will be praying for you to find some strength and peace for your journey that lies ahead.

~Secrets
 
Secrets,

I am taking Lexapro for the mental stuff...hopefully that will help with the depression symptoms. Only time will tell though. Right now I just feel weak, like I have had a stomach virus or something, kwim?

Also, since it has now been 41 hours since my last dose, should I be in the middle of the physical w/d symptoms. I just feel the need to know what to expect. I want to know if this is going to get worse. I don't think it will change anything one way or the other, but I like to have some sort of expectation as far as how long I will feel physically ill.

Thanks for posting by the way...you are great support!
 
I'm not familiar with Ultram, so I cannot speak of the withdrawal effects and when they will start or how long they will last or even what they will be like. But, if you're not experiencing them after 41 hours, feel lucky and cherish the time. Don't think about what might come, concentrate on THIS moment and live for it. None of us know what is going to happen to us one minute from now. Live for NOW.

When you are feeling run down its hard to stay busy, but maybe the tread mill will help out. I get that extreme exhausted feeling when I'm deep into my withdrawals and I have to push myself to continue to walk. My mind tells me to lay down, but when I do I go into the shaking and muscle spasms which are worse. So, I force myself up and walk more.

Stay with it and keep us informed.
 
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