Doomed to fall off the wagon??? Need advice!

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I agree with dorskin... I don't see any other choice you have at this point.. If you already know what will happen and that you know you will not be able to control yourself with the medication then you are going to have to speak to your parents... Hmm.. note to self.. maybe I should take my own advice.. On the other hand.. I UNDERSTAND how difficult that would be.. It would devestate my parents as well. I would feel I dissappointed them severely.. I have always and I mean always tried to be an over achiever and this would be so out of charecter for me and would level them.. So.. I guess you have to do what you have to do but protect yourself any way possible! You have to make these choices for yourself as we all do.. Just know we are here for you!
God Bless!
~Secrets
 
Hey Joy, I recently had another back procedure and I was fearful of abusing my medication. What I did was gave the pills to someone I trusted and they give me my daily allotment. That's all I get and the pills are kept in a strongbox that only she knows the corabination. There have been days where I felt I needed more and knew that I couldnt get to them. It was protecting me from myself. If it was up to me the pills would be gone in a short time.

I am an addict and I know that I can not be trusted. But even addicts have pain......so I made a plan and am sticking to it. Its an old saying but....

Those who fail to plan, plan to fail

Good luck
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Hi Joy,

I am new at this too but just wanted to offer you some support! I agree with dorskin. I am not sure if you have anyone that you could trust to hold your pills for you and give them to you when needed but it would be a good idea to maybe get a plan like that together.

I wish you so much luck! I know how hard this is and I have a lot of the same fears as you.. Just hang around here and we can all be supportive to each other!

Hang in there!
~Secrets
 
Quick note: I always thought my parents were oblivious to what I was doing........When I told them, they knew. Parents just seem to know when things are off with their kiRAB. When I was going through withdrawals I couldn't go to work for a couple days. The first day I stopped at my parents and they did everything they could to help me get through.

Hopefully you have supportive and understanding folks. I never want to disappoint my parents but I try to be honest with the mistakes I've made. This way, if they see me spiraling out of control again, they can check on me. I hate lying to them and if they asked, I know I would.........but would tell them the truth within a couple days.

Disappointed in me or not. Remeraber this is for what its worth. My parents might be completely different from yours, im just relaying what worked for me

Good luck
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Beautiful advice dorskin.. I needed to hear it.
Now.. if I could ever get the courage to do it..... that is a whole other story...... I step at a time.... You have given me much to think about though.. My parents are great and I KNOW they would be supportive.. I am just so ashamed.. Nobody in my life knows any of this but you guys... I can't imagine having to say the worRAB out loud.....
 
I've been the same way, for three years now myself and my "friend" where I got them from were the only two people who knew I have a problem. I just told my gf yesterday everything.. It was really hard, I thought she'd hate me, I felt so ashamed of myself. But she's loves me very much and is more supportive than I could have imagined. So tell your parents, Im sure they love you and care about you very much. And I'm sure they will help and support you in any way that they can...
 
Thank you guys so much for your responses and it really makes me feel a lot better knowing people are out there that understand and wont judge me , that
 
Thats a toughie. If it was (and this is just my opinion) I would tell the parents. Maybe not everything about you addiction past, but let them know that you are clean and not wanting to fall back into this turmoil. You can expect some questions but for the most part you are being upfront with them. I took too many when I was taking them, Im not now, but with this surgery I need some help staying on track. Like I said, this is just my opinion and its up to you to decide what to do. this is what I did and worked out well.

Take care
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Yeah, I completely understand.. How I got hooked was actually ligit. I had a medical problem.. Well, then.... that problem was taken care of and I did not want to give up the pills because they made me feel so great... Then in order to get more... certain things had to be said. My regular Dr. is VERY strict but then she sent me to a specialist and he was giving me an allotment of 10 percocet a day... Well, you all know what happens then.... You are so addicted you can't even see straight. And not only mentally but then if you don't take a pill first thing in the morning you go into severe withdrawels so I kept on taking them and I will admit.. I enjoyed every second of it. Sick.. I know. NOW....... I am free of them. Today I feel strong and today is the only day I am going to worry about... I will deal with tomorrow when I wake up!
So.. make healthy choices for yourself and don't let PILLS ruin your life. I feel like I have given myself a second chance and I am so proud! Focus on a goal for your life and that will get you thru.. For me.. It's easy.. I want to make insanely beautiful children with my amazing husband.. Find your passion and run with it!
You will be in my thoughts and prayers!
~Secrets
 
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