frogs_and_coffee
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advice.? I think I may have an eating disorder.
I'm a 21 year old female, 5'4 and 135 pounds.
In April 2008, suddenly I became convinced that I was "fat", and I went on a diet that severely restricted my calories. I wouldn't let myself eat more than 1000-1100 a day.
I lost weight. And quickly. In 4 months, I went from 135 pounds to 125, and continued losing until I hit 120 pounds.
I thought I looked good. And I was happy until I started having weird fluttering sensations with my heart. And I'd get weird pains inside my body.
My mom was really concerned and hid the scale from me and would also criticize every time she knew I was counting calories. Eventually, I realized that I was really hurting myself so I gradually gained back the weight.
But now, I'm back at 135 pounds and I feel fat. I'm convinced I would be prettier if I weighed less...so I'm wanting to lose weight. I've started working out and watching what I eat, but the only way I know to monitor food intake is by counting calories.
I know that calories play a big role in weight loss or gain, but I don't know how to make sure I'm getting a healthy amount--or how to monitor the calories I'm eating--without slipping back into the old ways I had of counting the calories in every single thing I put into my mouth. It's a compulsion and once I start doing it, it's really, really hard for me to stop.
Is counting calories unhealthy for a person such as myself?
Or is it ok? And how can I do it in a safe way?
Would working out be enough for me to keep weight off while eating normal?
I'd appreciate any advice. Thank you so much for your time!
I'm a 21 year old female, 5'4 and 135 pounds.
In April 2008, suddenly I became convinced that I was "fat", and I went on a diet that severely restricted my calories. I wouldn't let myself eat more than 1000-1100 a day.
I lost weight. And quickly. In 4 months, I went from 135 pounds to 125, and continued losing until I hit 120 pounds.
I thought I looked good. And I was happy until I started having weird fluttering sensations with my heart. And I'd get weird pains inside my body.
My mom was really concerned and hid the scale from me and would also criticize every time she knew I was counting calories. Eventually, I realized that I was really hurting myself so I gradually gained back the weight.
But now, I'm back at 135 pounds and I feel fat. I'm convinced I would be prettier if I weighed less...so I'm wanting to lose weight. I've started working out and watching what I eat, but the only way I know to monitor food intake is by counting calories.
I know that calories play a big role in weight loss or gain, but I don't know how to make sure I'm getting a healthy amount--or how to monitor the calories I'm eating--without slipping back into the old ways I had of counting the calories in every single thing I put into my mouth. It's a compulsion and once I start doing it, it's really, really hard for me to stop.
Is counting calories unhealthy for a person such as myself?
Or is it ok? And how can I do it in a safe way?
Would working out be enough for me to keep weight off while eating normal?
I'd appreciate any advice. Thank you so much for your time!