crystalballer
New member
Since nobody knows exactly how other people think/feel, I would like some opinions on my average day. I'll outline today.
I woke up feeling good. I thought of my boyfriend, how much i love him, how happy i will be to see him tomorrow, maybe even tonight. I got out of bed and instantly felt fat. I got dressed and brushed my teeth feeling this sudden wave of uselessness. Like i mean nothing to the world. I went back to thoughts of my boyfriend and absolutely hated him. I felt sick to my stomach that i had wasted 2 years with him. I decided I would not talk to him today, so i could cool off. (this happens daily, many times a day.) I also decided I would watch what I eat so that tomorrow I would wake up feeling skinny. I drove to school thinking about how excited I will be to go away to school next year and leave all of this behind. I arrived at school feeling wonderful about my life. My future, my family, and my boyfriend. I decided I would go and visit him tonight. I also decided i would indulge myself with food and feel good. However within about two hours I hated myself, i felt absolutely horrible about my work ethic, my appearance, my friendships, everything. I decided I must be completely idiotic to think that I could ever afford going away on my own. I remembered that my boyfriend would be coming with me. This made me angry. I feel nothing but hatred for him, for no reason at all.
These mood swings happen all day, every day, about everything. I feel absolutely ridiculous but at the same time I wonder if i'm just worried over nothing.
Opinions?
I woke up feeling good. I thought of my boyfriend, how much i love him, how happy i will be to see him tomorrow, maybe even tonight. I got out of bed and instantly felt fat. I got dressed and brushed my teeth feeling this sudden wave of uselessness. Like i mean nothing to the world. I went back to thoughts of my boyfriend and absolutely hated him. I felt sick to my stomach that i had wasted 2 years with him. I decided I would not talk to him today, so i could cool off. (this happens daily, many times a day.) I also decided I would watch what I eat so that tomorrow I would wake up feeling skinny. I drove to school thinking about how excited I will be to go away to school next year and leave all of this behind. I arrived at school feeling wonderful about my life. My future, my family, and my boyfriend. I decided I would go and visit him tonight. I also decided i would indulge myself with food and feel good. However within about two hours I hated myself, i felt absolutely horrible about my work ethic, my appearance, my friendships, everything. I decided I must be completely idiotic to think that I could ever afford going away on my own. I remembered that my boyfriend would be coming with me. This made me angry. I feel nothing but hatred for him, for no reason at all.
These mood swings happen all day, every day, about everything. I feel absolutely ridiculous but at the same time I wonder if i'm just worried over nothing.
Opinions?