C
*Critical Thinker*
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First off let me brief you that I've never had a gf, only have 1 friend at my college so far (better then nothing tho!), and I'm generally shy by nature (But I can warm up to people in time and become quite social)
I ask this because lately (past year or w/e) I've become obsessed with my appearance and the kind of clothes I wear. I'm not a neat freak, but I feel as though I have an unconcious desire to attract girls - I wear skinny jeans, graphic tees, I've worked out a little, I eat good... I'm straight btw, I just dress like that for the 'style'. Anyways, as of late I constantly go in the bathroom to fluff up my hair, adjust my belt- make it really tight, pull my pants up a little in my tight jeans (which gives me a little bit of a sexual arousal while I'm at college)
I mean it's crazy because I wasn't like this earlier this year- I wasn't wearing tight pants or going in the bathroom to fluf up my hair every few hours. I was sloppy in my senior yr of high school (Im a freshmen in college currently) I mean lately appearance I think has dominated my mind a little to much, i wonder how ppl my age think i look as I walk by them etc.. I mean it's like a thing I can't help, I didn't just wake up one morning and say "I'm gonna make a big deal outta my appearance" it sorta just creeped into my life steadily to the point I'm at today.
To be truly honest with you, I would like a gf, I desire compliments, attention, more friends! something! But I'm shy so I feel like it's a little inner conflict here or w/e you would call it, pehaps some of this is a sexual desire, I'm not entirely sure and I do know one thing- I do question exactly how normal I am by these kind of thoughts and what not but I do accept that we are all unique.
Anyways, How can I resolve this conflict, this DESIRE to have a gf, I mean honestly- I'm a virgin so I've never had a gf, and I'm not wanting it just to have sex- I just want it to... know what it's like to feel love and to have it. I want someone like-minded like me tho, I wouldn't just go for anyone.
I ask this because lately (past year or w/e) I've become obsessed with my appearance and the kind of clothes I wear. I'm not a neat freak, but I feel as though I have an unconcious desire to attract girls - I wear skinny jeans, graphic tees, I've worked out a little, I eat good... I'm straight btw, I just dress like that for the 'style'. Anyways, as of late I constantly go in the bathroom to fluff up my hair, adjust my belt- make it really tight, pull my pants up a little in my tight jeans (which gives me a little bit of a sexual arousal while I'm at college)
I mean it's crazy because I wasn't like this earlier this year- I wasn't wearing tight pants or going in the bathroom to fluf up my hair every few hours. I was sloppy in my senior yr of high school (Im a freshmen in college currently) I mean lately appearance I think has dominated my mind a little to much, i wonder how ppl my age think i look as I walk by them etc.. I mean it's like a thing I can't help, I didn't just wake up one morning and say "I'm gonna make a big deal outta my appearance" it sorta just creeped into my life steadily to the point I'm at today.
To be truly honest with you, I would like a gf, I desire compliments, attention, more friends! something! But I'm shy so I feel like it's a little inner conflict here or w/e you would call it, pehaps some of this is a sexual desire, I'm not entirely sure and I do know one thing- I do question exactly how normal I am by these kind of thoughts and what not but I do accept that we are all unique.
Anyways, How can I resolve this conflict, this DESIRE to have a gf, I mean honestly- I'm a virgin so I've never had a gf, and I'm not wanting it just to have sex- I just want it to... know what it's like to feel love and to have it. I want someone like-minded like me tho, I wouldn't just go for anyone.
