im 20 and never had a gf. I dont have many friends or family really after getting kicked out by my step dad a while back. I experienced a period of homelessness and suicidal thoughts after my dream of joining the special forces ended before it even started after the medical team found a ticking time bomb inside me which reduces my life expectancy significantly add to that alot of failed job attempts due to being homeless. I was staying with a former close mate but got booted out by his folks after about a month lol my dark sense of humor and a sensitive family aint a good mix. I felt my close mate could have stuck up for me more so screw him and his family. Im now staying with another family where for the first time i feel loved and welcomed and that makes me a better person. They are a christian family so i told them that if i got kicked out than there god will punish them lol (jokes...jokes i go to church with them on sundays) I feel these experiences have made me a stronger person mentally and no matter how deep in the sh.its i am whether it be being neck deep in swamp water or caught in the beautiful wintry orrrrible storm haha or just some caveman at the pub making a pathetic attempt to insult me laughing helps me keep calm some ppl think its crazy but i just start laughing however i hate to say it but i probably can never trust another human being completly again till the day my sickness eventually takes it course due to being let down by ppl who i thought were close to me. My body will probably shut down round 40 so at least ill leave a fairly good looking corspe lol (theres no cure so yeah no use crying about it)
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im the first to admit im a bit of an a hole but i know deep down im a nice guy too im currently studying to get into childcare cos i have a soft spot for children and i gave my employment consultant some flowers that i stole from a nice old lady's garden with a white picket fence i snuck in a little cheeky peck on the lips too but i swear to god i was aiming for her other cheek she so lovely
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im the first to admit im a bit of an a hole but i know deep down im a nice guy too im currently studying to get into childcare cos i have a soft spot for children and i gave my employment consultant some flowers that i stole from a nice old lady's garden with a white picket fence i snuck in a little cheeky peck on the lips too but i swear to god i was aiming for her other cheek she so lovely