im 20 & never had a a gf i dont have much mates or even family really after getting booted out from my step dad a while back i experienced a period of homelessness and suicidal depression after my dream of joining the special forces ended b4 it even started after the medical found a ticking time bomb inside me which reduces my life significantly add to that failed job attempts alot of them due to not having an address i was staying with my former best mate but got kicked out after about a month lol a spineless friend and a senstitive family aint a good mix but i felt he could have stood up for me more so F him and his family i am now staying with another mate and his family where 4 the first time i feel loved and welcomed which makes me a better person they r a christian family so i told him that if i got kicked out there god will punish them lol (jokes..jokes i go to church with them on sundays) i feel these experiences have made me a stronger person and no matter how deep in the sh.its i am whether it b being neck deep in dirty swamp water or caught in the beautiful wintry orrrrible rain or just some caveman at the pub making a pathetic attempt to insult me a sense of humor helps me relax some ppl think im crazy but i just start laughing but i probably will never completly trust another human being again till the die i eventually pass away due to being let down by who i though were good mates ill most likely die round 40 so at least ill leave a fairly good looking corspe lol (theres no cure so yeah)
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im the first to admit im a bit of an a hole but i know im a nice guy too i currently studying to get into childcare cos i have a soft spot for small children and i gave my job consultant some flowers that i stole from nice old ladys garden with a white picket fence that i say hi to every morning i snuck in a little cheeky peck on the lips too but i swear to god i was aiming for her other cheek she took it well though she so lovely
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im the first to admit im a bit of an a hole but i know im a nice guy too i currently studying to get into childcare cos i have a soft spot for small children and i gave my job consultant some flowers that i stole from nice old ladys garden with a white picket fence that i say hi to every morning i snuck in a little cheeky peck on the lips too but i swear to god i was aiming for her other cheek she took it well though she so lovely