I had taken quite keenly to the notion, that, I was one, who was robed in, 'great wisdom,' one who held a special kind of knowledge, and grew to be one who silently fancied himself to be greater than the rest. The pain that I have experienced in attempting to maintain this picture that I had created for my self is beyond the capacity of words to capture. I wish to genuinely see myself as nothing, and to rest in a sure humble knowing through a genuine state of "beingness" It is my desire to experience this and to allow it to flow through into my moment of Now.
However, I understand that I just need to allow myself to be me right now. I seek not religion nor any aspect of spirituality, I am focused on just being me in a relationship with this moment of a struggling being. I am sorry If I have offended anyone through a spiritual or intellectual pomposity. There has been a need within myself to show others that I have these capacities, it has made me feel good in being able to show others my achievements, I like compliments and from time to time I still crave compliments on what I have written or what I have managed to capture.
I once thought I held an exceptional level of lucid understanding and took great pride in projecting myself to myself as one who held the Golden key to enlightenment. The One to set the world free!
LOL. I have always sought the ability to awaken and eloquently accurately define the nature of my complete inner deeper dormant unlimited perceptive sense of knowing. I have burnt with such an incredible inner heavy longing to the point, where, I once thought, I would more likely experience spontaneous combustion rather than a state of non striving or a state of non-attachment to self.
I a apologizes to all my friends and to all those in who I may have offended. I bless me in you and you in me for we are truly one!
Do you portray yourself to others as those who hold the keys to enlightenment?
Robert D
Thank you!
Move on
It hurts a little to accept your correct in your observation in my use of 'desire' I feel it is not something that we chase after, it should not even be a goal. I know this, but I still have a strong feeling to want it. I am being real with myself.
The Elements
Sound wisdom!
However, I understand that I just need to allow myself to be me right now. I seek not religion nor any aspect of spirituality, I am focused on just being me in a relationship with this moment of a struggling being. I am sorry If I have offended anyone through a spiritual or intellectual pomposity. There has been a need within myself to show others that I have these capacities, it has made me feel good in being able to show others my achievements, I like compliments and from time to time I still crave compliments on what I have written or what I have managed to capture.
I once thought I held an exceptional level of lucid understanding and took great pride in projecting myself to myself as one who held the Golden key to enlightenment. The One to set the world free!
LOL. I have always sought the ability to awaken and eloquently accurately define the nature of my complete inner deeper dormant unlimited perceptive sense of knowing. I have burnt with such an incredible inner heavy longing to the point, where, I once thought, I would more likely experience spontaneous combustion rather than a state of non striving or a state of non-attachment to self.
I a apologizes to all my friends and to all those in who I may have offended. I bless me in you and you in me for we are truly one!
Do you portray yourself to others as those who hold the keys to enlightenment?
Robert D
Thank you!
Move on
It hurts a little to accept your correct in your observation in my use of 'desire' I feel it is not something that we chase after, it should not even be a goal. I know this, but I still have a strong feeling to want it. I am being real with myself.
The Elements
Sound wisdom!