I am an 18-year-old gay man and my youth has left me. I am ugly. I have come to the conclusion that all men hate me because I'm old, fat, and ugly. I used to think I was beautiful but I was mistaking. I look good depending on the lighting. If I look at myself in my mother's mirror, I look very handsome and can look at myself for hours. I look very young, too. But when I look myself in the bathroom, I can nearly vomit. I have large pores if I look closely and if I look at my hands closely, they aren't that of a child anymore. Although they are quite beautiful, they have pores on them, too. I wish I had no pores at all and looked beautiful. I would give everything I own to be beautiful but it's impossible.
I wanted to be many things. An actor, a singer, and many other show business-related things, but I've decided to live all alone in a dark apartment and become a poet. How do I go about writing poems and getting them published in a book? They will all be about my memories and my lost youth.
I wanted to be many things. An actor, a singer, and many other show business-related things, but I've decided to live all alone in a dark apartment and become a poet. How do I go about writing poems and getting them published in a book? They will all be about my memories and my lost youth.