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E'time I "approach" my husband for intimacy he avoid me with many reasons. So I didn't come to him again n remain passive. Later he come to me to hv intimacy but I hv no feeling anymore to him. Slowly but sure our marriage is crumbled. But we never discussed it.
One night I went to a bar with his best friend (he is my good friend too). I went out with him without telling my hubby where I go n with whom. When we were in the bar, n hv some beer, I told him wat I felt abt my hubby. I even told him that we already hv no sex for a year. I was crying a lot, depressed, n b'cause it's already late, he called my hubby n told him no too worry cause he is accompanying me. My hubby trust him so much, because he is his n my best friend.
The next day I told my husband that I wanna hv divorce. He was shocked n I decide to move out from home n find an apartment, the next day. For sure I don't want to live together with my husband anymore.
Afte several days in new apartment, I went again to a bar with my hubby best friend. We always talk until late n I felt happy e'time i met him. My question is:
-why I discussed my problem not to my hubby first but to his best friend? Is this considering cheating?
-is it possible that subconsciously i felt attracted to my hubby best friend but I don't realize it?
-is it possible that he is the cause to accelerate my "disgusting" feeling to my hubby? Actually my hubby is a scientist n never cheats.
-So far I don't think that I develop some kind of special feeling to his best friend. I just like him to company me going out to hv some drink.
- during weekdays n weekend I always went out with him...n I feel fine.
- Is it possible that I am in love with his best friend, but i don't realize it?. Personally I don't think that I am in love with him, i just feel that he is soft n kind. Sometimes I feel sorry for his own problem (he is under medication cause he has no self confidence). Many times during our meeting he discussed abt his life. He has big inferiority n his sex life only involve with prostitute, gay and men. He never had relationship with a girl before.
WHy I don't feel any guilty to my husband (anyway we are processing our divorce)
What will be happen next? AM I wrong doing this? I think I am confuse.
One night I went to a bar with his best friend (he is my good friend too). I went out with him without telling my hubby where I go n with whom. When we were in the bar, n hv some beer, I told him wat I felt abt my hubby. I even told him that we already hv no sex for a year. I was crying a lot, depressed, n b'cause it's already late, he called my hubby n told him no too worry cause he is accompanying me. My hubby trust him so much, because he is his n my best friend.
The next day I told my husband that I wanna hv divorce. He was shocked n I decide to move out from home n find an apartment, the next day. For sure I don't want to live together with my husband anymore.
Afte several days in new apartment, I went again to a bar with my hubby best friend. We always talk until late n I felt happy e'time i met him. My question is:
-why I discussed my problem not to my hubby first but to his best friend? Is this considering cheating?
-is it possible that subconsciously i felt attracted to my hubby best friend but I don't realize it?
-is it possible that he is the cause to accelerate my "disgusting" feeling to my hubby? Actually my hubby is a scientist n never cheats.
-So far I don't think that I develop some kind of special feeling to his best friend. I just like him to company me going out to hv some drink.
- during weekdays n weekend I always went out with him...n I feel fine.
- Is it possible that I am in love with his best friend, but i don't realize it?. Personally I don't think that I am in love with him, i just feel that he is soft n kind. Sometimes I feel sorry for his own problem (he is under medication cause he has no self confidence). Many times during our meeting he discussed abt his life. He has big inferiority n his sex life only involve with prostitute, gay and men. He never had relationship with a girl before.
WHy I don't feel any guilty to my husband (anyway we are processing our divorce)
What will be happen next? AM I wrong doing this? I think I am confuse.