Anime96Girl
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If there is something I noticed, I have an anger management disorder and an inferiority complex disorder. Also, I'm just a 14 year old girl! I think i have anger management because i'm often find myself yelling at someone at the spur of the moment for silly things that don't go my way. But i don't yell at people who i can't yell at. For example, i'm unpopular. If a popular kid does something bad to me, i just get mad and stay quiet. afterwards i always find myself thinking of comments i should of said. Then i find myself venting out my stress to my mom and yelling at her. When i mean yell, i mean scream. And at some point i start blaming her. I think out of my 14 years, i hit her at least 3 times. i know that's horrible.
I think i have an inferiority complex because of my in ability to socialize with other people. I always stick around the same people. This group of people consists of 5 persons. And also i always find myself comparing myself to other. Personally i don't think that's a bad thing, but my friends think it is. I also never speak about my life to anybody so when i want to vent out stress i end up yelling at someone who didn't do anything.
My parents often fight ever since i was young and my dad has anger management problems too. He's always yelling at either me or my mom. most of the time it's my mom. My mom has such a bad life with me and my dad... But my mom and i don't have a great relationship. I kinda asked her if i could talk to a therapist about my problems and she said nothing is wrong with me it's just because i skipped a grade. I'm in 10th grade at the moment. Also she's the time to avoid problems. If i confront her with a problem, she ignores my and stuff. Once i was crying and she did absolutely nothing.
My dad is worst.
Lastly, I have so much stress from school. The thing is I was a dumb child. I always got 60s and 70s. Now I think I'm getting smarter, i have an 80s and 90s in all subjects. But i want an 90 average. I find myself staying up all night till 3:45 A.M to study for my tests because i read manga till 9:00 P.M. So i stress out and try skipping school. But i stay up so late because i have some anxiety that i can't get a low grade. I would try to sleep the day before a test. But i never get the feeling that i fully studied for a test and end up not getting any sleep and study the entire night. I think it was because from 4th grade till 9th grade i was dumb and my mom hit me whenever i did bad on a test. Now that i am somewhat smart, i can never be in peace because my mind thinks i will get a bad grade and ruin my grade point average.
Also i'm not exactly thin. But i'm not some round ball. I'm somewhat on the border line of being skinny which kills me. My dad is bulky so i guess i got t with genetics. But i constantly look in the mirror and think i am ugly with ugly skin. I have a lot of birthmarks so i really don't ever plan on wearing a bathing suit and that kinds hurts being a girl and all.
So, do i have a mental illness or what?
Oops...
Let me just get one thing straight! Umm, yeah my parents did hit me before, when i was a child!
They haven't touched me at all in quite a while, maybe a year or 2. But the criticism got worst. Also, my parents don't come home drunk or anything. My dad just has issues and vents it out on my mom and I. Also, my mom is a great person. But, when i bring up my problems, I think the first thing that comes to mind might be 'Suck it up, my life is worse' because it kinds is.
I think i have an inferiority complex because of my in ability to socialize with other people. I always stick around the same people. This group of people consists of 5 persons. And also i always find myself comparing myself to other. Personally i don't think that's a bad thing, but my friends think it is. I also never speak about my life to anybody so when i want to vent out stress i end up yelling at someone who didn't do anything.
My parents often fight ever since i was young and my dad has anger management problems too. He's always yelling at either me or my mom. most of the time it's my mom. My mom has such a bad life with me and my dad... But my mom and i don't have a great relationship. I kinda asked her if i could talk to a therapist about my problems and she said nothing is wrong with me it's just because i skipped a grade. I'm in 10th grade at the moment. Also she's the time to avoid problems. If i confront her with a problem, she ignores my and stuff. Once i was crying and she did absolutely nothing.
My dad is worst.
Lastly, I have so much stress from school. The thing is I was a dumb child. I always got 60s and 70s. Now I think I'm getting smarter, i have an 80s and 90s in all subjects. But i want an 90 average. I find myself staying up all night till 3:45 A.M to study for my tests because i read manga till 9:00 P.M. So i stress out and try skipping school. But i stay up so late because i have some anxiety that i can't get a low grade. I would try to sleep the day before a test. But i never get the feeling that i fully studied for a test and end up not getting any sleep and study the entire night. I think it was because from 4th grade till 9th grade i was dumb and my mom hit me whenever i did bad on a test. Now that i am somewhat smart, i can never be in peace because my mind thinks i will get a bad grade and ruin my grade point average.
Also i'm not exactly thin. But i'm not some round ball. I'm somewhat on the border line of being skinny which kills me. My dad is bulky so i guess i got t with genetics. But i constantly look in the mirror and think i am ugly with ugly skin. I have a lot of birthmarks so i really don't ever plan on wearing a bathing suit and that kinds hurts being a girl and all.
So, do i have a mental illness or what?
Oops...
Let me just get one thing straight! Umm, yeah my parents did hit me before, when i was a child!
They haven't touched me at all in quite a while, maybe a year or 2. But the criticism got worst. Also, my parents don't come home drunk or anything. My dad just has issues and vents it out on my mom and I. Also, my mom is a great person. But, when i bring up my problems, I think the first thing that comes to mind might be 'Suck it up, my life is worse' because it kinds is.