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wholegrain
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So my acne is doing remarkably well...I've figured out how to control it almost completely through diet. My face is still pretty rough though from scars. I know there are different options, and it would have to be something serious like microdermabrasion or lasers to make a significant difference on my face. Because of the excessiveness of the scarring, just an over the counter product will barely make a dent.
But sometimes I find myself wondering if I really want perfect skin again. Sometimes I just feel so ugly and like everyone is staring and me and I want to cry when I look in the mirror. But sometimes my attitude is totally different. I think, "Who decides what is pretty and what isn't?" Who is society and magazines and TV to tell me how I should feel when I look at myself? I mean, even though I was blessed with 32 AAs (that I love), I would never get breast implants because I know that usually the desire for unnaturally large breasts is only a relative insecurity implanted by pop culture.
I just find me sometimes asking myself, "How is scar removal any different from breast implants?". Is my desire for so-called "perfect skin" just a projection of looking at too many Maybelline aRAB?
I don't know, I guess I'll figure it out in time. One day I will know the answer to, "Am I beautiful because of what I've been through or ugly because of it's aftermath?"
But sometimes I find myself wondering if I really want perfect skin again. Sometimes I just feel so ugly and like everyone is staring and me and I want to cry when I look in the mirror. But sometimes my attitude is totally different. I think, "Who decides what is pretty and what isn't?" Who is society and magazines and TV to tell me how I should feel when I look at myself? I mean, even though I was blessed with 32 AAs (that I love), I would never get breast implants because I know that usually the desire for unnaturally large breasts is only a relative insecurity implanted by pop culture.
I just find me sometimes asking myself, "How is scar removal any different from breast implants?". Is my desire for so-called "perfect skin" just a projection of looking at too many Maybelline aRAB?
I don't know, I guess I'll figure it out in time. One day I will know the answer to, "Am I beautiful because of what I've been through or ugly because of it's aftermath?"