so I figured joining the navy especially the nuke program I'm in would help me feel a little less unfulfilled I feel like I'm just wasting my life away not accomplishing anything I'm not sure what i want to be accomplishing though sure I'm now a u.s navy sailor not really sure what that means yet , I'm in one of the hardest academic programs in the country with my training here and I'm actually doing well but I'm not sure what it means other than I can learn and do math. I guess this is cool though I'm surrounded by other smart people but that's a double edged sword because smart people are assholes and I'm also one of the younger guys here the perils of enlisting only a few days after turning 17.
I go out and do volunteer work and do cool shit with my buddies but that seems like an even bigger waste since the only reason I do the volunteer work is for the ribbon not because I give a shit
and now i feel like a whiny little bitch i guess i should be happy I've essentially got the most bad ass job
I also wonder if perhaps it's just loneliness/homesickness but that's a whole other post and and I don't really want to type that up today.
I go out and do volunteer work and do cool shit with my buddies but that seems like an even bigger waste since the only reason I do the volunteer work is for the ribbon not because I give a shit
and now i feel like a whiny little bitch i guess i should be happy I've essentially got the most bad ass job
I also wonder if perhaps it's just loneliness/homesickness but that's a whole other post and and I don't really want to type that up today.