There may not be one person who agrees with me on this, but I mean it in all due respect, for all of us who face long and difficult diagnosis's, and those of us who do live lives while affected with serious illness.
The one thing that comes to mind after going through the extensive personal records she has been keeping, is that she is fixated on being ill.
I don't mean to be offensive, or lack understanding...it's just that I have years of experience with a dear friend who has a very similar fixation with his medical history. We are a group of very close friends, and this man is not happy unless he is in pain, tired, sick, etc... I mean all day, everyday. While the rest of us (who have real medical issues, like stroke survivors, lung transplant survivors, kidney failure, heart attacks, blindness, etc.) laugh, and enjoy our lives, grateful for every day- this man wallows in self-absorption.
We are all part of an art club for the disabled that I started. We meet at his house, because he's too zonked on pain medication to drive. While we paint and color and glue and draw...he moans and groans and relives all of his medical issues. It is so sad.
It is an amazing phenomenon! I am not saying he is not experiencing these things, it's the attitude that seems to be the difference! Everybody hurts sometimes, everybody's eyes get tired, we all have days were we are klutzy, the weather affects all of us!
If she has been to so many doctor's, and had so many tests, over so many years-all negative...and the symptoms appear, and disappear... perhaps there is nothing wrong with her.
I would imagine she gets a great payoff from all this attention given to her when she produces this diary. It just reminds me of my friend, who lives with the same focus on his ill health.
I certainly mean no dis-respect, and I admire you for trying to get help for your wife. i wish you well.