depresson sucks

OMG i used to be soo fucking depressed. I used to cut myself, I used to have to take pills and go to a therapist. Nothing really helped and then I had to move and start over. It sucked cuz i had no one to talk to but it forced me to find myself. If you work out, it almost cures depression (or it did that for me) because it gets the "right chemicals" flowing. When I get sad I punch a bag or I literally drag myself outside to run. MAKE yourself go for a walk and avoid sad music when you are sad, it only makes you worse. If meds are the only thing that will help you than by all means take them when you can. Maybe someday they will have a cure that is easier. STay healthy, i love you, don't hurt yourself. I feel for you.
 
magnolia - pills should not be something a human being needs consistently. like an SSRI like say paxil or some shit, celexa / prozac / zoloft / effexor / etc or wellbutrin or any other take-me-daily-so-pharmacia-can-get-more-rich drug.

the truth is this:

you're a late adolescent. you are facing the conflict between social and innate constructs that skorch and i have been discussing in chit chat. to be brutally honest with you, it won't ever get better, but your freedoms will increase.

the question is of how you can examine your thought processes and emotional reactions to your thoughts and effectively start managing them.

whatever your meds are, be they for bipolar disorder, ocd, gad, etc, take my word for it: you don't need them.

paxil almost killed me.

~ dan ~
 
and durtytoothbrush has a point: get a routine of adaptation going. exercise (go for a walk around the block every night or something), eat healthy foods with low fats (lots of vegetables), and try to sleep the same amount of time each night.

it's amazing how just THAT can help. your mind and body always send you signals. listen to them; instead of what society tells you they are, figure out what they are for yourself. you'll see that society is wrong.

~ dan ~
 
wow, you said it ^

yea I won't take pills or see a therapist even though my dad wants me too
i know it's going to make me worse because I don't want to become some fake happy person on pills, I just want to be myself and hope I find someone who likes me for that
and therapy is going to drag me nowhere, all it is to me is sitting there with someone sucking the money out of you while they try to tell you what your problem is and I've already discussed with my best friends and cousins my deepest inner most feelings and we've gotten along a lot better now, but no one has been able to solve my problems
so until I find the next thing to raise my spirits, i'll continue living with depression..though now I'm kind of enjoying it...not like an attention getter, because at most times I want to be left alone...but more like the depression is helping me realize who I am and how to be happy expressing my real self
right now the way people think of me doesn't affect me anymore, i have a don't care ideal going on

*edit*...oh btw, sorry I never replied with that screen shot, lol, if you remember
my laptop got so bad, the only way to fix everything is a new motherboard..I found one too..so I'll be saving up
but for now I bought the high tech stuff and my friend and I built my new computer...fastest computer I've ever dealt with perfect graphics and it's all mine...plus the 4mb broadband we have now rocks!
 
wow... that sounds EXACTLY like how i used to be. i didn't give a fuck about anyone or anything... i just wanted to be left alone.
 
really, hmm..that's probably why i mentioned most people tend to go through with this now'a'days
but yea, I also realized something as well...the fact I'm 19 and never had a gf or the matter never even getting anywhere with a girl always drove me crazy...I thought that was why I'm so depressed...but after spending time in my room for 4 fucking days straight and only venturing outside my room for the restroom or water...think I only ate like twice in that time..but i'm kinda anorexic so it doesn't bother me
point is I realized that's not my problem at all..in fact now I haven't really thought about women as much, I still want a gf badly, but i'm relaxed now....my real reason was my personality, i was trying to be someone I wasn't and I hated myself for it, I figured maybe you have to be able to love yourself before you can love others
 
i dont suffer from depression i just get really angry and explode and start hitt'n people....(i dont understand why), but you really gotta piss me off. otherwise im pretty much dead inside, i only have feelings for girls... pretty much it.. not for guys, pets, wild animals, anything. (guys as in if there dad died i wouldnt feel sorry for them stuff like that).
 
that's... kind of sad. I have the same problem, i gave this drunk guy two black eyes once because he wouldn't stop trying to kiss me and then he pinched my ass- i couldn't control myself. I'll be in jail someday, so when i stop writing y'all know where I am...
 
that's ok...I hate jerks like that also..and hope to never ever become one at all
and if you dissapear, we'll all bail you out
 
Haha.
Oh by the way, is that 'Puss in boots' off shrek 2 in your avatar?
Hah i went to see that with my girlfriend, not as good as the first...
 
Yeah, it's puss in boots. I love his little pout. I liked both of them. They both had their good parts.

UF, I hate pills too. I wish I could just chuck em out the window.

I have started to exercise (sp?) more and eat healthier. It's hard when u work in a resturaunt, but I'm trying. I try to go out and bike each day too. Or, since we have like a billion steps in our house, I'll go from the upstairs around the corner and down to the basement and back up a couple of times. Talk about a cardiovascular work out. I've been drinking a lot more water too. I don't know. I just hate worrying ppl who are close to me. Then I feel even more like shit. It's hard.
 
yea i'm the same way...i started working out more cause of my anorexic behavior so I needed to keep myself in shape so I don't die from starvation
...plus I always think about those few select people in my life that are now worried about me like crazy..and I don't want them to suffer like that so I'm trying to figure something out
 
"a couple times." that shouldn't be a cardiovascular workout. jogging it fifty times should.

check your resting pulse rate. are you 60bpm? are you 90bpm? make sure that when you do you cardiovascular workout that you work up a sweat, too, even if you have to slow the pace and keep your heart rate lower. it helps all metabolic aspects of the same idea.

part of depression is just no energy.

anyway, what are your pills called, if i may ask?

~ dan ~
 
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