Depression sucks

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If there's one thing the whole "emo" movement has ruined, it's depression. Hell, I can barely take MYSELF seriously when I get depressed, let alone expect others to relate.

It's funny what can trigger these episodes: often, all it takes is a look in the mirror. I don't think I'm ugly, but I've got bad skin, and it's always been a sore spot for me--even hearing somebody mention the word "pimple" would make me tense up, as if I thought everyone would suddenly look at me. Other times, it would be a happy couple, reminding me that I'm alone. The other week, it was somebody with enough courage to just start a conversation (why couldn't I do that?)

Anyway, I just felt the need to write this stuff somewhere besides my journal. Write whatever you want, I won't be checking for replies.
 
If you know "when" you get depressed is a plus.

Being in a depression for years and not realizing it, is when you have a problem.

I'd welcome the emo movement if it made it hard for me to take myself seriously when I got depressed.

I live the latter. I have a problem.
 
I'm really sorry for you. From what you have wrote, I've got the same problem. I can't even hear that word. It upsets my stomach and makes me feel like a horrible person for having even ever been born, then the depression kicks in. I've got manic depression that I usually need heavy meds for, and I think abstract thoughts all the time. I don't want to say too much on there, but I'd like you to know that you're not alone.
Sorry I can't really say anything on making it better, because the only thing to really do is to wait it out.

Best of luck.
 
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