Depression, and this new antidepressent medicine...?

[Christie]

I have been depressed for quite some time now..and well the other day i finally got the curage and went and talked to my doctor about it. He put me on Celxa and wants me to see a conselor. I felt better after talking to him about it, like i didn't have a secret anymore. I'm still having problems sleeping at night, only getting a few hours of sleep. Earlier today i had a customer at work yell at me over something i had no control over...well when she did that it felt like i was being attacked in a way..i started shacking, felt like my heart was racing, and it became difficult to breath. I have never had that happen when a customer gets mad and takes it out on me. I also had times where i would be doing something at work and just completely forget what i was doing. I also had a hard time remembering a simple code that i use every time i work. I've been working at the same place for over a year and know the code by heart. Is that normal for me to be having those types of things happen to me? I don't feel as depressed now that i am taking it but i still feel the urge to cut, even though i don't want to. Its strange to have so many different mixed emotions running through me and not know how to deal with them. Is that normal? I'm still feeling distant from everyone and find it difficult to get a task completed. What should I do? Have you ever experinced those things before?