days 1 - 4 of oxycodone home detox

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Rosebuddy

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Good morning, It's almost 5 and I got about 5 hours of solid sleep with my usual dose of 15 mg valium, 2 10 mg flexerils and 200 mg lamictal. My legs were really hurting last evening, but feel much better now. The constipation is no longer an issue, so far no diarrhea though. I am achey but I have fibromyalgia and so that's not real unusual. My nose was really drippy yesterday and then congested all evening. With my breathe right, I could breath through my nose most of the night. So hopefully today will go as well as yesterday. I didn't crave sugar last night or this morning, which i always do. I took 1 tramadol when i got up and am switching to aleve because I don't want to get addicted or dependent on them. (I can't believe that they are not classified as a narcotic, so many people on here have addictions to that drug, and my husband did to. Personally, I don't get it, but I have never taken more than 2 at a time and never on a regular basis. He says it's harder to get off of them than the percocets)

Do I need to go to na? I'm not sober yet. I had a bottle of wine and 3 drinks last nightm and that's not very much for me. I know....blah....I will deal with that in a few days. I can't go into detox because of the valium. I used to be on 80 mg, cut down to 15, but giving up that 15 mg has been really hard to do. I used the Ashton method switching from short-acting xanax to longer life valium and then cutting by 5 mg or so every couple of weeks. That was a long time ago. I need to get 2mg pills, and finish the detox off of that. I would love to go into an inpatient rehab, because my husband drinks every day too and so there is always alcohol in the house. He won't quit.

Well lets see theres percs, valium, alchohol. I wonder who I will be without those chemicals in my body. I wonder if i have liver damage.

Well that's all I have...ya know it's all about me right now. me me me. I want so much to help others and have a purpose. I know it will happen if I keep on keepin on. I don't think it will be with other alkies though. I have been in and out of AA for over 20 years. At one point I had 3 1/2 years and then 10 years of sobriety. But the last 6have been in and out and just useless as far as helping others. I hate going to meetings. I always feel worse afterwarRAB.

Thanks for listening and for your comments and advice. Please be honest with me. I need your guidance. And I hope that if someone is reading about detoxing that they will know it's not so bad. It does suck though, but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Rose
 
Hi everyone that is tuned in today. I am Rose and a perc addict and starting detox today.

I tapered down to 4 1/4 a day (10/325mg each) for a few days and decided to just say...well you know...let's get on with it and get it over with.

I took 1 10 mg pill this morning and sneezed and had such a runny nose and am achey so i finally took a 1/4 pill, which ofcourse stopped the w/d symptoms. I thought about stopping cold turkey on Monday 2/8 but i will have to take care of my two big dogs by myself for 4 days plus my birthday is the ninth and i don't want to spend it all on the sofa.

So am starting today on a Thursday afternoon--going to get my supplies from the Thomas Recipe this morning and going for it. That way, I can feel the worst today and tomorrow, and have my husband to take care of the dogs this weekend, cook, housework, etc. I don't work, am on disability, and the house is clean and I just have some laundry to do and I can do that this morning. By Monday, the worst symptoms will have passed and I'll just be depressed with terrible blahhhs, no energy, depression. L Tyrosene helps a lot with that, but I read that it also blocks other amino's, so i am going to drink protein shakes that have all the amino's too. Hopefully this will help to even things out.

I also have the added pain reliever tramadol, which i know from this board is highly addictive, but have been on prn for 6 years with no problems-I just take it as prescribed or less. (I filled my last rx in October) I also have valium which someday I will taper down more...but that is another story.

I need to get off of them and not get the next refill and "just take them as needed." What a joke. No refills and I'm telling my doc not to refill them.

So...why do i want to quit?

Lots of reasons, mostly the inability to have a healthy bowel movement unless i take miralax, stool softeners and use an occasional enema.

Difficulty achieving orgasm and I really love sex, so this is a great motivator.

Sick of it. I am going to be 49 years old. I am too old for this @#$%. I think what if my kiRAB knew? They would lose so much respect for me. What if my parents knew? and I feel like such a loser living like this.

Oh yeah...liver damage....from all the tylenol in the pills...plus I drink which is a big no-no.

Sick and tired of having to have pills with me when i go places and take them every few hours or experiencing w/d. Bondage.

So if you are still with me, after this long post...hang with me each day as I go through this. I need all the support I can get.

Thanks. Peace. and to all who are detoxing...keep the faith...we'll make it through. And to those who need to detox, maybe this will help you. And to those who have made it to the other side and are clean, may this be a reminder to you of how much addiction to pain meRAB suck.

Rose
 
Well it's been 24 hours now. I'm tired and my leg muscles hurt. I'm going to take a nap if I can get to sleep. House is clean so am just hangin out and watching movies. I wonder how long til I feel normal, you know, when you feel good but without the pills?
 
Rose~

Hello :wave: After reading your story I really believe that you have what it takes to kick this demon! That is really what I believe this addiction is of ours.. A DEMON! BONDAGE... Whatever you want to call it, I couldn't agree more and I am so happy to hear you have made the decision to kick the pills out of your life and move on to better things in life!

Believe me.... I will tell you that life does get better as I am sure you already know. Sure there are ups and downs of course... Those will happen while you are using or sober but regardless I can say for myself, I seem to take those issue's more seriously sober. Depression, UGH... I fought with this terribly at first and from time to time still do but since you said you enjoy sex then I would say that is the best way to corabat depression and YES, your sex life will improve and the big O will be achieved.

You pointed out another GREAT reason... your children! That is what got me to ultimately quit. I want to be a Mother so badly and I know that will not happen if I kept using. We already have some fertility struggles stacked up against us and using and abusing pills will certainly not help! So focus on those children... That is what I have done and it has helped.

I just wanted to let you know that I am here for you! I am so happy you are preparing for this leap and just know.... I am here to take your hand when you make the jump.

Blessings!
 
Thanks for the encouragement Secrets. I really need it. I think I'm prepared for the detox now. I took my last 1/4 pill this morning. I am achey and my nose is runny. I mainly feel like i have the flu. I took an aleve and a tramadol, but my joints still hurt. I got the laundry caught up. I ran to the store for my juices, bananas, teas, etc. and dropped by the library and got about 10 free movies; all light and funny ones. I'm getting ready to lounge on the sofa.

I used to be a project manager. And that's how I'm kind of looking at this detox. Psyche, prepare, prepare and accept that I will suffer, suffer, recover over a few days, depression for a few weeks, and then all done with that project. All done. No more.

Thanks again. You brightened my day. Thanks for holdin' my hand.

Rose
 
Hi Rose --congrats on your journey. I am so proud of your decision. The decision to quit is very easy sometimes but the actual DOING IT is the hard part. Remeraber that we are never done with this battle. It is a lifelong thing that will be part of us forever. If you think for one second that you have beat it,m then it will sneak back in. NA, AA therapist etc are all thing that will help us stay clean. Please think about this when you think of the long run, i have relapsed way to many times to think any other way.

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Rose~

YOU DID IT! With that last pill our of your system you are on your way now. I know it's not fun and it's so scary wondering what life will be with out them. I swear, I went into mourning over my pills being gone... They were like my secret little best frienRAB... I just was so beyond depressed. I can tell you though that with time you will feel better. Just last night I had fun with my husband (no drugs, no booze, just us!) playing a silly board game and we laughed so hard and I honestly felt HAPPY. HAPPY so HAPPY! I seriously teared up a little bit when I realized it. Now, I am not going ot lie and say cravings are not going to give you a run for your money because they probably will. I still deal with them daily. Here is some good advice that I have been putting into place the last few days. Every bad thought I have in my head, I make myself have a good thought about myself. Everytime I have a craving I make myself tell myself why I "shouldn't" use since my brain is trying to convince me I should. I just talk thru it all in my head and so far it's been working.

Now, the feelings of w/d......... OH THE MISERY..... However, it sounRAB like you have gone thru it before and are well prepared for this time around and your attitude is GREAT! I will say, the Valium should certainly be helping you thru it big time. At least if you can get some consistant sleep than you will have the mental strength to keep fighting.

You just keep going girl!!!!!! I don't have computer access over the weekenRAB (we don't have one at home-UGH) so I really look forward to hearing any updates yet today from you or coming in on Monday and seeing how you are doing!!!!

KEEP GOING!!!!! YOU CAN DO IT! You will be in my thoughts and prayers!

Blessings!
 
yeah, i know...believe me, I know. It's more than a "project", it's my life. This is my third time around with this. I never stayed off it though, I would get it refilled "because it was prescribed for my illness." The fact is, is that I am not IN pain most of the time. If I don't take a pill every 5 hours, I go into w/d. When i first get my refills, I get high off them. Way high. So you are right. I'm ready, but it IS a life long decision. I just don't like who i am anymore. I want my life to have meaning. And right now all i do is drugs...and drink...I don't want to talk about that right now. One addiction at a time.

Thanks for your advice. It helps so much to know that you care enough to help me out when you don't even know me.

Rose
 
Hi Secrets,


Thanks so much Secrets for your enthusiasm. I really needed it...Yay Me! Thank you God, It's been a day plus without a percocet!


I am going to print out what you posted and when i want a pill, I'll read it and follow the directions.

I am stiff. I need to stretch out. And take a long shower/bath. I have been laying around on the sofa or in the recliner all day watching movies to keep me distracted from the pain and the blahs.

I look forward to your post on Monday.

Yay!!! :) I really am smiling. Thank you secrets
 
Oh Rose, you are MORE THAN WELCOME! I really hope this weekend flies by for you and before you know it the pain will subside and the blah's will start to go away.

I swear, I lived in my bath tub while detoxing.... It was the only thing that helped me out. I would take one right before bed as hot as I could and then immediatly after getting out I would get some pj's on and try to fall asleep without my legs jumping like crazy. I hope it works for you honey!

I will be thinking about you and can't wait to hear from you on Monday!!!

GO GO GO GO!!! You can do this! I just know you can. You sound so strong and we are all here for you!!!!!!!

Blessings!
 
I decided to wait until Monday to detox. It just seemed like poor timing doing it on the weekend. M-F my husband works, and it would be easier for the both of us that way. I sure was miserable and just taking one percocet made all the pain away. Any way, I want to be honest and I still want to go through the w/d process with you guys.
 
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