Day 4 ......so far

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Well, last night was a doozy. I went to sleep with some benedryl and woke up 1 hr later with pretty good symptoms. Felt like someone was squezzing my body and heart!~ I didnt freek, because I know that my heart is ok and that I am very healthy (kinda), so I tried and tried to get back to sleep and after an hour I said screw it and took one Benzo. I hate these drigs --they only make me loopy and sleepy. It worked, so i guess that there was some anxiety mixed in also. Any way. Here I am at work at noon and still kinda feel the same, but I am going to keep on truckin today. I will go home and work out and see what the day brings. That is my only choice huh.

sucks. I want this all to go away. For some reason, this time is different than any before. It seemed so easy to get off before, maybe someone is trying to tell me something. DO NOT let me forget this!

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I am so glad to hear that!!!! WOOOHOOOOOO!!! Now maybe it will also help you sleep too! I think it's GREAT advice!!!

I hope you keep just feeling better and better!
 
5:30 now and just got back from a full afternoon of activities with my family. Feeling a little bit of "yuck" but the key is to keep yourself occupied. This internet thing is great but you need to separate from it and stop thinking about the issue at hand. I know that is not easy in the first few days, but I am at the end of Day 4 and you have to be ready for anything. That is the only way I can describe this rollercoaster of feelings and emotions. You almost have to FORCE yourself to feel good. It wont come from the mind. THis is my 6th (erabarrassed) time doing this and the one thing I have learned is that the only thing that makes you feel better that is good for you is endorphines. They are naturally released through all the HOME REMEDY stuff that people talk about. Hot baths, showers, exercise, sex, etc. That is it. If you are looking for a break try it. As the days go on, the hours of feeling better get more and more and the light at the end of the tunnel gets brighter and brighter. Lets keep our chins up.

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Oh D...I hate to see you sad and if I could,I would be over like a shot to help you out. I can totally sympathise today as am battling meself. I admire you for keeping on chipping away at it because it will get easier in the long run...its just a sad fact of life that sometimes we dont want to wait..we want our gratification right NOW! Instant relief is what we're used too but not what REAL life is all about. Guess we just have to remind ourselves of that to keep us in the zone. You'll need to print some of these posts out and stick them round a room in your house so you'll never forget how hard it was this time round. That'll be a good incentive not to let yourself slip right back as far.
Im here if you need mate,....go work out and I bet the natural endorphins will feel better than all the arficial highs.
Good luck
CC xoxox
 
D...home remedy of sex?! Hubby just read your post and Im in for a long night now...tee-hee!!
Seriously though,I think that its good advice. No,its not easy to get your butt up and about but normally it does help. Cant say that the real aerobic stuff is something that Ive been able to get myself to do (but Ive tried after some of your previous posts) but a good,long walk is also good.Its the natural endorphines we all need to get back into our systems so we can finally function like normal people again. All these drugs screw up the system good and proper.
Mate,Im so chuffed that you've hung on in there through all the tough times...and yes,this may not be the first time you've done this but you said yourself that this times different. Hold that thought close and remeraber your achievements. I will....I often re-read your posts cause they give me hope. Never forget who you've helped D with your honest approach. I am one of those people.
Mate,I sure hope you sleep well tonight and have peaceful dreams. But even if you spend another night thrashing about....your time will be coming very soon. You are now drug free. Awesome.
love CC xoxox
 
CC --your awesome --thanks. I am off to work out for an hour. ! post later.

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Morning D...though I suspect you're still in a deep sluraber?! Just wondering how last night was for you and if you managed much rest. Going into day 5 mate:D....you're an inspiration.
love...CC
 
Good for you D! I never had the strength during w/d to work out! You should be so proud. I am sure it would have helped big time!!!

Keep it up! You are being an inspiration to many. Keep that strong chin up, you are almost thru this part!!!! YOU CAN DO IT!

Your in my thoughts!
 
Well --just got back and all I have to say ONCE AGAIN--JUST DO IT. No matter how much effort it takes to get off your butt, it will give you a SEMI break from the yucks. The natural endorphines really help and I can feel them HEALING the scars I left where the opiates used to be! (at least thats how I visualize it!) anyway. I am not suggesting 41 minutes of hard aerobic work, but if you can just get out and get the legs moving --if you can go up hills and force yourself to get sweat going, it really makes a difference. DO NOT expect to be JOHNNY active after you are done though --it REALLY wipes you out! All of you in the 2-4th day get out NOW and post how you felt after. I will promise good results

Better D
 
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